you are the dream i had wished so badly that would be mine

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you are the dream i had wished so badly that would be mine
i made a wish on the stars hoping that it would be you
Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, then send this to 10 of your favorite followers! ❤
oh oh oh hi thanks love~
but i don’t really have much i like i guess??? ahh
okay so uhm AHH
1. i like that i am empathetic
2. i like that i have good tastes in friends
3. i like that i have good tastes in biases
4. i like that i can write even though i feel like i suck
5. i like that i uh damn can tolerate people???
i usually don’t like doing this but i can’t help but want to share my two cents on this because it’s literally all i can think about. it’s something that pains me so much and i just need to get it off my chest.
do you know why i think jongin cries like that when he can’t perform even though he’s injured? it’s because ever since he was a trainee he was sm’s “golden child”. there were set standards for him ever since he was a kid, and of course you grow up thinking you have to live up to them. think of it like this: it’s like when you’re younger and you’re told you’re really smart but then you grow up and realize you aren’t as smart as you were told and you start thinking you suck, and you have failed standards that were set for you. jongin probably feels he disappoints fans and others when he gets injured, and can’t perform. like he’s letting everyone down.
dear jongin,
you’re flawed and there’s nothing wrong with that. i still find you absolutely beautiful. your flaws are even what i find perfect. i absolutely admire how talented you are and how much hard work you put in. please, please never think you are letting fans down. don’t work so hard to the point you strain your body. what we want to see is a happy and healthy, beautiful jongin doing what he loves most. i never want to see you look so lonely on that stage ever again. always remember that we are always here beside you. we’re always proud of you regardless.
i feel like this a lot to ask considering we’re all aiming for the goal of being in this book or whatever but like i don’t mind liking yours if you like mine ;; and oh god me making fun of promo4promo is coming back to bite me in the butt but seriously you guys have no idea how much it would mean to me if even for a second jongin knew of my existence and could just know how happy he makes me and how so very thankful i am he exists. i couldn’t really express myself fully with the only 500 characters im allowed but i really tried to express all that i feel for jongin in those 500 characters which was extremely difficult cause god i love that kid. im extremely frustrated that i don’t even think i succeeded in doing it but i really tried and i just really hope it actually makes it to jongin so much i would owe you my life if you could so kindly like this and help me out;;;;
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nini let's sip hot honey tea cuddled up on the couch in the winter
let's stay up all night watching super hero movies
and then decide to go the beach the next morning
because why not
who cares if it's cold that's what hugging is for
if we're going to be shy people let's at least be shy with each other
let's own five dogs okay!
let's find endless things to talk about curled up in each other's arms
im ngl you'd have to initiate the conversation
but with you i could probably talk to you for hours
we could laze around on the couch and watch soccer
id can teach you some chants hehe
or we could go and actually play?
we can invite the loser hyungs
let's play 2 against 5 i bet we'd still win
((let's not invite xiuhan tho ok))
let's share headphones
with eddy kim's 'darling' on repeat
i would love to listen to you sing to pyt from the bathroom
i wouldn't even care if you were even just a bit offkey
i'd just laugh it off cus either way your voice is still my most favorite thing in the world
let's film a lot of self videos with each other and create a lot of memories okay
when i finish uni with a degree in production how about you help me with my very first project?
i think it's going to be about an average girl who falls in love with an angel im not sure yet
just letting you know
im planning to steal a bunch of your shirts for my own usage
bc theyre snuggly just like you im pretty sure
when we go out on fancy dates promise me you'll dance in our living room to justin timberlake
swing your tie around cus you'll think you're sexy
((chances probably that you are indeed sexy))
for your birthday i promise to buy you some really nice vans
or how about some fancy sperrys instead?
we'll probably argue over what we should have as a midnight snack
ill complain over having chicken again
(('but nini! i don't want to eat anymore chicken! they're too cute!'))
in the end i'll probably give in bc you'll puppy dog face me
and kim jongin is chicken really that important to you??
it'll be ok tho cus later you'll compensate with three in the morning snuggles
i just want to live so simply with you i really do ;A;
frapcoffee said:
why do u love kim jongin
aka the stupidest question ever and i actually have hatred growing for u sarah watch urself
dear jongin
is it weird if i write to someone who will never read this? is it termed being delusional? i hope not, because it would be great for the person i teared for while watching him dance to be able to at least know that i will always support and love him. and that's you, EXO's Kai, or rather, Kim Jongin. i'm still unsure of why my emotions overpowered me and the tears flowed when i watched that one fancam of yours. you were pouring out all your heart to perform a choreography which you have practiced a zillion times for, shining and standing out so brightly amidst your fellow members (who are already considered stellar dancers). and i asked myself, how could anyone put in so much effort into things? and i thought about myself - always bumming around and procrastinating to the last minute. always blaming everyone else and lamenting that everything is against me, i hate the world, i want to die blah blah. but you proved me wrong. you showed me what passion is. determination. perfection. effort, i see in you, and i promise you, i'll mimic your actions. i won't be kim jongin, but i'll be that one fan who goes, "that jongin oppa got me my As." thank you, for being the star i look for amidst the dark sky, for always pushing me through pushing yourself, for being the greatest role model and hardest worker. i love you.