#dear mason

[dad-zac]

[nicoleofwaverly]

[dear-muramoto-san]

Maybe this is really the end this time. I’ll stop waiting after a week has passed. It doesn’t take a week for a person to think of a response. It shouldn’t even take 3 days. But if there’s nothing by Saturday, then please just leave me alone forever. If you actually want me to move on like you say.

[dear-muramoto-san]

Even now after all the anguish and agony and bitterness and tears, I still wish you would change and you would talk to me and we could be friends again. So I could fucking tell you happy birthday.

[dear-muramoto-san]

Can’t even tell people that I miss you. ‘Cause they’ll get mad at me. They’ll ask why. They’ll berate me and tell me to stop. But no one really knows how much I loved you.

[dear-muramoto-san]

I wish you blocked me. Then I wouldn’t think about you. It’d just be like, “that’s that.” But maybe you hate me, but you just don’t care about blocking people. I know people like that. I’ll never know unless I’m inside your head.

[dear-muramoto-san]

It’s still weird. You’re over there and I’m over here. Not that far away from me but light years away at the same time. And I could talk to you but I can’t. I could have you back but I shouldn’t. Do you forgive me? Would you ever forgive me? Do you hate me? Because I don’t hate you.

[dear-muramoto-san]

So close to giving up on you.