#dear sephiroth

[blackfeathersflurry]

PSA-Remember everyone, if someone suspicious contacts you, terrify them until they go away.

As a former cult leader, I may have some experience in this. Simply ask something along the lines of "Are you willing to offer your body and soul to the lifestream for our mother Jenova?", or something similar. Get creative. Remember to use a creepy emotionless and unsettling voice while doing this. (Over the phone, chat, and irl)

"Oh good, you came to me. It looks like my plan worked." Almost always throws the person off guard. They think there are others in the area getting ready to ambush them, or as MUW says-get the jump on them. And they may think you are the lure. Do not stop there. Stay confident. Keep going. Talk about a barbeque and how they are the main course. Their ribs definitely look meaty. (Only works irl)

Talk about the weather and how you buried someone last week who looked just like them. "Oh well. It must be a coincidence. But you'll be happy to do it again." (Phone, chat, irl.)

Discuss deadly toxins as a topic. Cleaning chemicals count. Know their effectiveness on the body and know which ones are undetectable and can be seen as a typical medical condition, unless requested in an autopsy. Just for conversation sake. Then go straight for crime documentaries about serial killers and how they never got caught and how they are very.... educational.

MUW: WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHEN IM NOT HOME?!?!

Cleaning and coping. I need something stimulating while you're away.

MUW: Ok, so long as you're avoiding the documentaries about Jones Town....

Oh please, I was bad. But I wasn't Jim Jones bad.

MUW: What?!

What?

[blackfeathersflurry]

What was it like being invited into Smash Bros.?

With Cloud as the invitation of course.

-♾️

Ahahaha.

Ha.

Ha.

Why do you think I like fighter games?

They're immersive.

(And someone who likes pink a bit too much likes to join in. At least I know what medicine to get them when they have an upset stomach.)

00€:.....

[blackfeathersflurry]

you're beautiful.

~🌱 anon

That's very sweet of you, 🌱 anon.

I...um....I don't really uh.....thanks.

[blackfeathersflurry]

Wait wait wait, we get given a sword? Yeah, I’m probably doing need that practice 😅

Well then?

Prepare yourself.

[blackfeathersflurry]

Hey welcome to Kentucky Fried Chocobo, what can I get you-

wait a second…

you the bird guy?

Hold on…

*mutes xbox 360 drive thru mic*

HEY KARL, ITS THE BIRD GUY AGAIN!

Y’KNOW, GUY WITH THAT WING?

HE’S HERE BUYING WINGS AGAIN

KARL I’LL BACK TO YOU ON THAT

*unmutes*

Sorry about that, a uh… Mu got into the fryer again

But before I take your order, are you secretly a cat? Your eyes remind me of my cat at home—his name is Alamo thank you for asking— but anyways

I must know if you are a cat sir.

I am not. Can I please just take my order? The hungry little menace had a hankering for wings and boba, so I said we'd stop.

MUW: DO YOU GUYS HAVE SWEET POTATO FRIES?!

....This isn't a Wu Tang Tea, MUW.

MUW: It's a combination Kentucky Fried Chocobo and Wu Tang Tea.

Damn it.

[blackfeathersflurry]

"I Can fix him."

Don't.

He knows what he's doing.

If he doesn't want to be that way or can't control it, help him find the resources, but let the resources take it from there. He's not ready for a relationship.

If he doesn't want the help but instead chooses to continue the pattern, run.

It will only hurt you.

"But Sephiroth, MUW and 00€ fixed you!"

No, they didn't. I wasn't given a choice to go to therapy. Rather, it was one of my stipulations for staying with MUW. And MUW kept a stern distance from me for a good month or two.

"I can fix him.", creates an ideology that ultimately puts both parties into a toxic situation. Or worse, it gives an abuser incentive to take hold of a vulnerable individual. This not only creates a distrust in relationships, but also a distrust in men. Especially men like me. I am not going to deny that I am still going to do bad things as a way of providing for those in need or the people who have become family (I am not referring to bouts of rage. I'm not that unhinged and I choose to maintain self awareness and control.). These things, however, do not expunge previous histories of committing genocide or murdering innocent people.

"No matter what happens, chances are that I will leave Shinra in the end."

That is atleast close to what I said, if memory serves correct.

I didn't want to be in SOLDIER. It wasn't even my call to begin with.

Then I was in a library for days, like a man possessed.

In my canon...well I don't want to give spoilers....

Either way, I ended up burning down Nibelheim.

By this worlds standards, I should be somewhere close to 48-50 years old. However, being imprisoned in a time space limbo keeps you at the age of 31. And as I look at the math, you can see that there was quite a bit of time to reflect. I am perfectly aware of my behavior. And even though the physical age doesn't suit the mental, I am perfectly self aware of my actions as opposed to most men my age.

(No, I do not get the senior discount at IHOP.)

And when one is imprisoned in a time space limbo, you learn a few things in the in-between. For starters, you learn to reflect on your sins and determine that your actions are by every means yours. Even if you are under influence of Jenova and Mako addiction, they will still be yours and there is no changing it. Just like the person you want to "fix".

No matter how many times you try to chase down an unhealthy obsession to try and replace someone,or even someone to have some sort of an emotional connection with, be it through psychic link or otherwise; chances are...that person may beat you to a pulp. At best, not even want you back. And the latter is the best case scenario. I cannot be any gentler than this.

So the "I can fix him" mentality goes under the assumption that the person in question even wants to be fixed. It's ,at best, a form of cognitive dissonance.

Please remember that.

And for fucks sake drink some water.

[blackfeathersflurry]

6’1 ?!

Dude what have they been giving you???

Jenova cells and an existential crisis that nearly wiped out an entire planet.

I'm pretty messed up.

[blackfeathersflurry]

When the cosmos brings someone to you...

Treat them well. Be kind to them and do not laugh at their hobbies or interests. Enjoy it with them. Short of atrocious acts, I don't believe that that person could cause any harm by doing something that makes them smile.

Unless that smile quite literally lights up a room.

Then the question entails as to whether or not it's arson or a fault in the electrical system.

[00€ Disclaimer: This page does not condone arson or violence of any kind. Smokey the bear says only you can prevent forest fires.]