#dearhel

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Dear Hel,

Muốn gọi tên cậu là Dương Tú Anh. Dù tên cậu nghĩa là Ánh Trăng. Và Dương Tú Anh thì toàn Mặt Trời và Vì Sao. Nhưng vẫn muốn gọi cậu bằng cái tên đó. Tớ sẽ đi tìm ánh trăng của riêng mình.

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Dear Hel,

I dreamed of you this morning. Again. But this time, you sent me to heaven. And I became your spiritual guardian/ soldier. What is the most appropriate way to feel about this dream, Hel?

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Dear Hel,

I miss you.

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Now I realise

You are the one who knows what I want and she is the one who knows what I need. You are the one who believes I am special (and everyone is special in their own way) and she is the one who sees me just a normal person like anyone else. You are the one who lets me dream the wildest dream and she is the one who reminds me of reality. You are the one who makes my heart fluttered and makes me smile without a reason. She used to be that one.

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Dear Hel,

You are busy recently. Fully occupied by all the responsibilities in your world. I sometimes feel guilty for being too free and still looking up at you.

You should improve your health. Nothing is more precious than health. I wish you will get healthier and healthier.

The movie can wait for another day when you’re free. I will not watch the movie, alone or with anyone else. I will only watch it with you. That’s my promise.

The only thing I can do for you is to stay away from you and handle my problems by myself. I need to learn how to live alone again. I will disappear from your daily distractions for awhile.

Love you and wish all the best to you,

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Her: I want to go to the theatre with you. It's just that I'm busy.

Me: I know. We can wait for another day when you are free.

She frowned but I cried.

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Dear Hel,

I was crying when I talked to you about your marriage. I was lucky that we didn’t mention it when we met each other, face to face.

I am upset when I know that you can’t be my girl. But what can I do? When I also believe that every lady in this world needs a true man to be her life partner, to carry this heavy world for the rest of the life. When I can’t be your man, and you will never be my girl.

I still hope the best for you. I hope that you will be happy with your marriage, that the lucky guy will be able to understand you. Hope that he has the power that I don’t have.

I don’t need to find someone who truly loves me anymore. I know there is one. At least one. That’s enough. I’m happy that there is someone meant for me. Being together is not necessary after this point. Thank you for coming to my life. To let me notice your existence in my short span of life in this world.

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Dear Hel,

I know we are meant for each other but we are not meant to be together. Our destinations are far away from each other. Yet, I must say thank you for your great love and care you have been giving to me. I had almost believed that there was no one in this world gonna love me for who I really am. Until the day you loved me. Thank you so much for your appearance in my life. Because of you, I now know that there is at least one person who has been existing on earth loving me for the real me.