#death ...

[wisegrunty]

just made the strongest coffee i've ever tasted bc i couldn't tell how much water i should have put in

[bumyoongi]

give them a grammy or else 🔪🔪

[notjusthespongenextdoor]

oh god i had the most vivid dream last night of waking up with those fucking rubber bands still on my teeth ahhhhhhh

[merisms]

i know i've talked about not being used to family here before. the only 2 people in my bio family i'm in contact with are my bio dad and his sister. they weren't in my life during the abuse that happened to me and we reconnected when i was 18/19. i still hold them at arm's length mostly because i don't know how else to Be. i don't know what's normal to do or how to behave around family. i'm trying to be more open, but it feels very unnatural and strange to me. my dad is also a nurse that works 16+ hour days and my aunt is immunocompromised. my aunt is sick and tested negative today after waiting a week on results, which is good. i know everyone is afraid for at-risk loved ones and for themselves. i'm not really afraid but it...is weird to think about the only nonabusive biological family i know to be at high risk of being Gone after only knowing them for a few years. i think it's triggering for death-related parts that believe we are the reason people die

[xx-mama-k-xx]

Excuse me for being a shitty person

Or don't. I don't care. Ha! .. I love feeling like shit all because I miss friends that I fucked relationships up with! ... love feeling like I'm undeserving of others ...

[visceral-sensations]

Scrying

Method: Lapsang Souchong Tea with Cinnamon

Focus: What to be wary of in the immediate future

Symbols (Interpretations): An eagle fleeing a dying tree, chased by a rabbit (uprising, scarcity); A rat and a skull fleeing the scene (terrors other than death or plague); A dragonfly charging a bumblebee (conflict among allies, anarchy); A sparrow rising (hope, loyalty, vigilance); A falcon diving in a snowstorm (determination, resolve); An eye watching from the stars (judgement, guidance)

Final Dregs: A mermaid or siren (beauty in terror); A great tree containing a ram, a serpent, and a mage (personal involvement, involvement of allies new and old)

Final Interpretation: There will be great conflict, risen out of oppression. I am involved, as are my friends. Terrible things will occur, but the greatest of them will not be death or sickness. Even those on the same side will quarrel over structure and method, but will eventually solidify into a driving upward force. Chaos abound, the deed will be done, as great and terrible and beautiful as it is. The hand of whosoever does the deed will be guided to its completion.

[garudagay]

Rather than fear death the lesbians choose to embrace it as an old friend.

i too, would love to embrace death