Dec 22, 2014
i miss my mother.
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i miss my mother.
i just gods damn it I WISH I HAD THAT POWER I WISH I COULD GO BACK AND PREVENT WHAT HAPPENED I WISH I STILL HAD MY DAMN MOTHER!!!!!!! I KNOW IT'S WRONG AND PATHETIC AND UNHEALTHY TO LOOK UP TO AND BE JEALOUS OF A FICTIONAL CHARACTER BUT GODS I WISH I COULD PULL THOSE SAME THINGS OFF I WISH I WAS JUST AS STRONG P LEASE GODS JUST LET ME HAVE MY MOTHER BACK
7 months of pain and and my dad has rhe nerve to hide the urn that we picked for her bexause “peiple coming to buy houses dont wanr to see dead peoples ashes” i think your wife matters more than the house 7 months of sorrow and he has the nerve ti tell me he wants to propose to serina and that hes finally met “the right woman” you met the right woman and married her on valentibes day 18 years ago when sje was expecting my older brother and neither of you knew 7 months of emptiness and he has the nerve to sell all her things that he didn’y give to us and completely change the housr and remove all the pictured of her as if she never existed
but she did exist and im not goign to let go for many, many years
it often feels so much like i have nothing there’s always a period of time i’m not getting the required attention there’s always those moments where the loss of my mom and having my cat given away and the fact that the one adult i can trust lives like two hours away hurt me i have no talents, nothing memorable about me at all i often vanish without a trace even though i’m right there idk
"Has the finger of death to be laid on the tumult of life from time to time lest it rend us asunder? Are we so made that we have to take death in small doses daily or we could not go on with the business of living? And then what strange powers are these that penetrate our most secret ways and change our most treasured posessions without our willing it?"
i'm laughing omg chrom was low on HP so i said "damn! chrom's gonna die!" and i was at the table with dad so he replied, "well, that would be chrommy." so i just "yeah, that'd ruin his chromfidence!" to which he said, "sometimes, everyone chrombles." fucking amazing.
i let emm die again but Hell , i got levels