#dec 13 2018

[onisuu]

sheik :o

[cxhnow]

Chloe x Halle perform “Down” from debut album, ‘The Kids Are Alright’ on The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon · December 13, 2018

[onisuu]

Some OCs 🦄💕

[monroemary]

Kudos to The View for using pictures of the LA premiere of OTBOS with Armie in That Coat® to make sure viewers stay tuned after the commercial 😏

[gioelline]

Happy 29th Birthday Taylor Swift

[dear-anna-m-blog]

Dear Anna,

I think about you increasingly often lately. I wonder if it might have something to do with my stress level, but then again I don't think I'm that terribly stressed. Recently I've been listening to some more angsty music and trying not to go into yet another tailspin thinking of you. Of course, trying not to think of something only makes it stronger in the dark corners of your mind. It's as if the very idea of you hides in all the small spaces I rarely visit, but it times they all come out at once and surround the rest of my consciousness.

I feel like this letter is going to be particularly short and nonsensical so I apologize for this, but not too much because it's helping me sort out my thoughts.

Currently, I'm seeing a young woman and things started of wonderful. They still are quite wonderful, but I just don't feel that spark that one usually feels in relationships. I don't think it will last, but I don't think I want to end it just yet. She's really highlighted for me the fact that I'm a very complicated person. She also had shown me a lot of the other strange ways my bipolar disorder affects me.

One of the things I thought was particularly interesting was how my mind does things without my knowledge. I just sort of come to conclusions and the process by which I got there is irrelevant and not immediately clear to me. If I go back and think about it, I can usually explain it to others, but it's not something that I just have right there. This is something good in my mind, though. It lets me think about things without necessarily thinking about them. I usually describe it as letting ideas "marinade", meaning I just take the ideas in and wait a few days and my mind just sort of automatically thinks about it whenever it can. I don't have to actively make a point to think of things, it just sort of happens. I actually didn't know that other people don't work that way until she explained it to me.

Things feel complicated and fragile in that relationship and I really don't like that, so I think I've mentally checked out. It's an odd feeling I have about the situation.

But I still think of you.

-Rudy