Deceptions and Daisies (4)(m)
words 4.5k this chapter is pure smut and angst 🤡 (p.s. sorry this took so long, life has been crazy lately and I had some writers block I had to work through. Anyways, hope you enjoy!)
chapters (one, two, three )
After that last ‘fight’ you and Wooyoung had, you’ve been spending a lot of time with San.
he’s been stopping by after classes just to say hi, or even bringing your favorite snacks, since he, unfortunately, knows that you tend to forget to eat when you’re stressed. Sometimes he doesn’t really need a reason, he just likes to just relax with you, talking about everything and yet nothing.
He’s come to learn a lot about you in the past few weeks and you’re always amazed at how well he can read you and your emotions. You’ve been feeling so bare and open around him, and surprisingly it’s been a welcoming feeling, it’s been nice to just be… well, yourself again. It might be too soon, but he feels like one of your closest friends already. Honestly, San has even been around more than Wooyoung lately.
Your boyfriend would often visit his ‘ex’ and ‘just a dance friend’ then rather see you, it felt like.
although, after you had confronted Wooyoung, you feel like he has been putting in at least a little more effort for you both. It may seem pathetic to some, but you weren’t ready to give up, not after eight months of being happy and loving him. You admit you were feeling close to giving up, but after talking things over for hours and hours, you decided to give him another chance. Obviously, not everything was perfect and you weren’t expecting that, but the ups and downs are always what made you both stronger together, at least you feel that way.
‘Woo.. you’re so different lately. Are you really here with me? even when we’re together lately, I just feel so… alone’ insecurity laces your voice.
He sits across from you on the couch, letting your words sink in.
He looks at you and instead of denying it this time, he just puts his head in his hands and exhales.
He looks up after a few seconds, looking uneased.
‘I don’t feel like myself lately.. and I guess I was just hoping you didn’t notice’ he confesses.
‘Really? because It’s all I notice. I thought we didn’t keep things from each other, Woo’ you say surprised, mumbling the last words softly.
And for the first time in a while, he isn’t looking defensive over your honesty.
‘y/n, I haven’t been.. completely honest with you.’ he sounds anxious and you stare at him nervously, waiting.
‘I’ve been seeing Hana after work sometimes.. when I don’t come here’ he sounds ashamed, and in your current state of mind, he should be ashamed. You didn’t fall in love with this Wooyoung, the one who lies.
‘Why? Why are you seeing her, Woo? No more lies or we’re done, I swear. I can’t keep doing this’ you try your best to sound confident and not let your hurt show.
He looks at you with guilt and swallows hard ‘I swear we aren’t doing anything, not like that. We’ve just been talking and I’m helping her to dance’ he says like he hopes to convince you.
‘Then why? And why do you look so guilty?’ you implore.
‘...She said she still loves me’ he confesses.
Your heart sinks. You weren’t an idiot, you could tell there was something deeper left between them, but it still really fucking hurts.
‘And do you love her?’ you ask weakly.
‘I love you’ he replies quickly and with certainty.
‘That’s not what I asked, woo’ you feel your eyes start to water and you try desperately to keep him from noticing.
He stares at you so softly yet cautiously ‘y/n, listen to me. What I had with her.. It wasn’t ever really as genuine as I thought at the time. If I’m honest, I think we only got together because she was lonely. Besides that, she is my past and you are my now. I want this, I want you, and I want us.. For a long time, if you’ll still have me’ he meets your eyes.
Your chest is aching.
even if his words are reassuring, you know you can’t just keep forgiving him so easily.
‘I want us too, but I can’t keep going on like this. I can’t pretend it doesn’t hurt anymore when you are with her more than me. I’m not dumb, Woo. I knew you were with her and I just... I can’t. This isn’t me, i’m not some cliche jealous girlfriend’ you trail off in a frustrated tone, feeling some tears drop from your eyes and meeting your cheeks. This isn’t how the talk was supposed to go, but is anything ever easy lately?
He pulls you into his arms and rests his head in the crook of your neck. ‘Just one more chance, I’ll do better. I’ll be the boyfriend you deserve. I’ll be good for you.’ you feel yourself tremble in his hold. his voice heavy with emotion, he breathes hotly onto your neck and presses a wet and gentle kiss against you ‘I love you, y/n’ you sigh and try to hide a slight sniffle ‘I love you too.. Please don’t make me regret this’
San tosses a french fry in your direction, it pulling you from your thoughts.
He sits at the edge of your bed with a small fast food bag, staring at you expectedly.
You can tell he just got out of class by the way his hair is slicked back and his cheeks are still a bit flushed. He's dressed in a loose tank top, which must be some of his workout clothes. He must have come by straight after teaching and that thought makes you all tender for some reason. It’s just that you know that San likes to go straight home after work or school, but instead, he went and got you some food and chose to spend time with you. It may seem little, but it means a lot to you. It’s your day off from work and even if you told him to just head home and relax, having him here feels really nice. You’ve spent the day in your pajama shorts and a baggy shirt and if it was any other friend then you’d feel nervous and under-dressed, but you know that San doesn’t care.
‘If you don’t eat your fries, then I will’ he shoves some fries in his mouth messily, being an absolute goof.
You toss the fry back at him and it hits his chest, he looks at you offended. ‘Shush. Now where’s our ketchup?’ you tease him and he smiles, his dimple showing.
He tosses you the bag softly. ‘Yes, princess, and I got your extra ketchup too. You know, I get some weird looks for taking over 25 ketchup packets, so you owe me.’
You scoot towards him and hug his back ‘you’re the best, Sannie, you know that?’ you say in a sing-songy voice. You suddenly feel your breasts rub against his back through your thin shirt and you stiffen, feeling embarrassed. You’re just hoping that he didn’t notice. (He’s just thankful you can’t see the blush on his face) He nudges you off of him and you fall back gently on your pillow ‘I mean something I actually want’
you poke his back with your socked foot in offense ‘Hey! I give good hugs. you’re sweaty anyways, so fine, whatever’ he laughs at your sassy behavior. ‘Come sit with me?’ you pat the pillow next to you, he obliges.
he rests his head against your headboard and shuffles a bit to get comfortable.
'so..' he tilts his head at you 'is Wooyoung coming over later?'
you nod a bit shyly 'yeah, he has tomorrow off so he's going to spend the night.' you smile, getting excited to spend some time with your boyfriend.
He gives you a small smile of acceptance ‘so things are back to normal?’
You shrug ‘I mean.. no? But he’s trying, we’re trying. He hasn’t been seeing… her as much’ you mumble carefully, not wanting to say her name. He understands, he doesn’t like her either.
‘She hasn’t been around the studio either. Maybe Woo finally stopped being an idiot.’
You chuckle ‘that idiot is my boyfriend, but yes, he’s an idiot, my idiot’
You both finish snacking and put on some anime on your laptop, watching it together on your bed. You’re both resting against your headboard when Sans phone goes off. He says to ignore it but then his phone keeps buzzing over and over, he sighs, looking irritated, he runs his hand through his blonde hair ‘I’ll be a minute’ he says sounding agitated and heads out of the room. You figure it must be important, so you pause the anime and wait for him.
After a few minutes, you get bored and grab your phone. You notice a few messages from Wooyoung.
Woo ♥ Can’t wait to see you, sweetheart
Woo ♥ Just a couple more hours ♥
Woo ♥ Want me to bring any food or snacks?
You see that his last message was about ten minutes ago and you decide to reply
sent Just bring yourself ♥ I just got some food, but thank you~! San brought me a burger and fries 🥳!
You get a response pretty quickly after sending that, surprisingly.
Woo ♥ Why is San there? Tonight is supposed to be our night.
Is he actually jealous right now? You aren’t sure what is going through his head so you send him another message
Sent Because he’s my friend? and he wanted to see me. We’re hanging out before you come over then he’s heading home, not that it even matters.
You send back, feeling slightly irritated.
Woo ♥
I just wanted you all to myself tonight, sweetheart. I can’t wait. Besides San has a date tonight, I'm sure he’ll be leaving soon.
You read his message over again, feeling taken aback a bit.
Before you have time to reply to Wooyoung, San makes it back in the room. He puts his phone on your dresser and relaxes against your pillow, he exhales tiredly.
Does he really have a date tonight? And why wouldn’t he tell you?
‘Everything okay?’ you ask him softly.
‘Yeah.. Yeosang just keeps trying to set me up on these blind dates and he doesn’t take no for an answer.’ he sighs.
‘I take it you got roped into one?’ you chuckle, feeling a weird sense of relief that he chose to share this with you.
‘This would be the third actually, He keeps picking his sisters friends and it’s already so awkward when we see him and his sister at parties, I guess she doesn’t take me not wanting to date her friends so easily.’ he looks tired.
You pat his head gently ‘i’m sure when the right person comes along, you’ll know’
He’s laying on your pillow while you have your back rested against the wall, your laptop sits in between you two.
He meets your eyes ‘I think so too’ he smiles, so damn sweetly. God, that dimple makes you so soft and you swear that he knows.
You both settle and watch some more anime, after a few episodes, he decides to head home, looking tired from his long day.
‘Be safe?’ you’re at your door telling him goodbye.
‘Always, princess’ he bows all cheesily.
You punch at his arm for teasing you and he catches your hand. ‘Too slow’ he laughs.
‘Once I get better reflexes, you’re done for’ you respond with far too much sass.
He’s still holding onto your hand when he pulls you in for a hug. The position you’re hugging him in has your arms wrapped around his neck rather than his waist. His arms wrap loosely around your waist.
Somehow, this hug feels… different
Your heart starts to beat faster. Of course, you don’t let yourself think too much into it, you can’t. Besides, this is San, one of Wooyoungs best friends.
He pulls you closer and your face rests against his shoulder.
‘I’m here if you need me. I’ll stop by again soon’
You both pull away from the hug tenderly.
‘Same, but I think you need might need me more, you know, to rescue you from your dates’ you offer and he gives a small laugh.
‘I’ll remember that’ he waves with a grin and heads out, the door clicking behind him.
You’re really glad he came over today.
After waving him off you head to the bathroom to take a shower before Wooyoung heads over, which should be in about an hour. The shower is calming yet exciting. Just knowing that you’re about to see your boyfriend has you so energetic.
After getting out, you put on some vanilla lotion (knowing that it was Wooyoungs favorite) and blow-dry your hair, you dab on some light lip gloss to finish it off. You decided to put on a sheer baggy sweater with a tank top underneath, knowing that you look cute. You kept your sleep shorts on, though. they are your favorite after all.
You pick up your apartment a little before he heads over, and of course feed your fish baby, Clem. Sometime after you finish cleaning you hear a knock on your front door and your heart jumps. Excited but anxious to see your boyfriend.
You pull open the door to see a tired and sweaty looking Wooyoung in front of you, in his hands he holds a small bag and a single red rose. You already feel yourself grinning at his antics.
‘Really? Are you trying to impress me, Mr. Jung?’
He smirks ‘depends, is it working?’
You pull him into your apartment and plant an aggressive kiss on his lips.
After pulling away, his lips try to chase yours again immediately.
‘So impatient already’ you tease.
‘It’s been 3 days, baby. I’m past impatient at this point.’ he whines and puts his bag down.
He hands you the rose and you blush a little bit. ‘Thanks..’ you mutter feeling slightly shy and he just softly kisses your forehead.
He heads towards the couch and pulls you with him. You end up sitting in between his legs as he lays on the couch. His black fluffy hair is parted so you can see his eyes.
‘You’re so pretty, sweetheart.’ he says with affection and you turn your head, feeling shy under his gaze. He notices and you being shy and pulls you down on his lap for a kiss.
You’re truly in awe of this man and god.. you’ve missed this so much. Just the both of you, no drama, no lies, no Hana, just the both of you being with one another.
With you on his lap and kissing him he eventually starts to slowly grind into you, his bulge already thick and hot. You realize soon after that he isn’t wearing anything under his loose joggers.
‘Really, Woo? Nothing under here?’ you ask in surprise and reach your hands down to where the outline of his briefs would be and he just smirks at you and grips your hips.
‘I missed you, sweetheart..’ and you let yourself fall into him, getting lost in lust and feeling some wetness drip out of you.
He puts his hands under your shorts and massages the swell of your ass with his fingers. You shiver at his touch, whining in his hold ‘really? Already?’ not expecting sex this soon.
‘Really’ he replies, voice thick with arousal. Suddenly he moves one of his hands lower and cups you through your panties, feeling the hotness of your cunt radiate. You moan needily and he slips a few fingers inside your panties, running his fingers through your obscene amount of wetness. It takes him far too long to slip the first finger inside of you and when he does, you absolutely crumble against him. You feel yourself soaking his hand and you couldn’t care less. He has two fingers curling against your insides and you want nothing more than to sit on this mans thick dick and have a mind-blowing orgasm.
Of course, he doesn’t let you cum yet, he just teases you until you’re about to scream in frustration. So, you find yourself reaching for his pants with a whine, trying desperately to get them off of him and you hear him chuckle at you. ‘Shut up.. Need you..’ you say deprived.
After a few more minutes of kissing and him having you at the precipice of an orgasm, he has enough and tugs your shorts off aggressively and with zero care where they end up.
He pulls your sweater off and you practically rip his shirt off of him.
‘Please?’ you whimper, him under you, watching you already fall apart for him.
He lowers his joggers just enough for you to get to his dick, moving quickly. You can tell he’s eager to get inside of you.
‘Shit’ he says breathily when his dick rubs against the slit of your wet and puffy cunt.
‘Condom?’ he asks gruffly and it surprises you. You and Wooyoung don’t use condoms… You haven’t since you both got tested, two months into your relationship. Also, you’ve always been on birth control, but you’re far too drunk with lust to think properly or question him so instead of replying you just grab his dick and angle it towards your entrance and drop down on him.
The moan he lets out reverberates through your apartment. He fills you up so perfectly. His thickness stretches you out and before dropping down on him again, you bring your fingers down to where you are both connected and whimper at the feeling. He must get be getting impatient, because he grips your hips hard enough to bruise and thrusts up into you, fully sheathing himself inside of you.
Sweat drips from his forehead as he starts to fuck you harder, and after a few minutes he gets impatient and you get on your knees for him, anxious for him to get back inside of you, your wetness dripping down your thighs. You both sigh in relief when he finally gets back in.
He’s pounding you from behind and you feel his fingertips already bruising your hips, but you honestly love it. The way his cock drags against your insides has you nearly in tears and you whine, pushing back on his cock. He catches your hips mid-thrust and helps guide you back onto him even harder. The meat of his thighs slaps against your ass so deliciously.
He’s grunting behind you, holding onto you possessively ‘yeah? Like my cock, sweetheart?’ he asks huskily. You trail off in response, sounding a pitiful mess, almost in tears ‘yes, the best’ tears fall from your eyes and you can tell from behind you that he’s getting close already. ‘No one can make you feel this good?’ he asks again, his tone dominant and intense, his voice deep. ‘Just you..’ he knows how easily he can make you fall apart. you grip your hands harder onto the couch and you’re having a hard time thinking straight with him fucking you so hard, just then he reaches his hand towards your front and starts to rub circles onto your clit. You are delirious at this point. He knows that you’re close and spreads your legs further, giving him room to abuse your puffy clit. Your peak is coming and you can’t form words at this point ‘only I can make you feel this good’ he whispers in your ear with certainty and determination. You’re not exactly in the right state of mind to wonder why he’s being so dominant, with your orgasm at arms reach. You’re whining and writhing under him, and with a slight pinch to your clit you find yourself cumming on his cock. You practically scream form the strength of it and he moans loudly behind you, fucking into you ruthlessly, his sweat dripping on your back. Just when you think he’s about to cum, he pulls out of you and finishes outside of you. Moaning loudly, he milks himself onto your ass. You feel cold all of a sudden.
Why did he pull out? He is obviously oblivious, basking in his afterglow. But you’re laying there confused.
‘Thanks, baby.. I needed that.’ he grabs some tissues to clean you up and softly flips you on your back on the couch. You see him all flushed and red from fucking you, his hair curled slightly from sweating. ‘...I did too. You didn’t come inside, though’ you say with a pout, feeling almost silly. He smiles at you ‘was my little slut wanting to be filled up?’ you turn to your side and he senses your mood slightly shifting, he comes to sit next to you on the couch. You’re still laying there mostly naked with his cum still dripping down your thighs. ‘I wasn’t even really thinking. I just know it can get messy’ you turn to him ‘well, don’t do that.’ he chuckles at you. ‘Never again, my love.’ after that, you both take a shower together, he rubs your back and kisses at the back of your neck, which has you giggling and pulling away. Being ticklish isn’t exactly romantic, you feel like.
He stays in the bathroom a bit longer and you decide to get your laptop and put on something for you both.
You hear a buzzing coming from the living room, realizing it’s Wooyoungs phone. With things being more at ease now, you feel comfortable grabbing his phone and heading to the bathroom door to knock ‘Woo, your phone is going off. Is your hair dry yet?’
After you say that it buzzes again and by accident you see who it’s from, only seeing a snippet of a couple of messages.
Hana Are you done yet?
Hana I miss you.
The last message is what shocks you the most.
Hana Why won’t you just tell her already??
You drop his phone loudly as he opens the bathroom door, some steam coming out.
‘Hey, what’s wrong?’ he sees you looking pale-faced and stunned. He looks worried.
Ha, worried? You thought.
‘I saw your messages’ You say bluntly. You’ve had enough with being timid and calm about this. You’re done.
He suddenly looks nervous ‘my messages?’ he asks, looking confused.
‘Yes, your messages. Now get the fuck out of my apartment’ you say with conviction.
He just stares at you, his jaw slightly dropped.
‘I don’t think you read what you think you did’ he says calmly.
You scoff at him, looking at him like he thinks you’re some sort of idiot ‘really? Because according to Hana you have something to tell me, what might that be?’
‘Look, y/n, we need to talk but -’
You cut him off in frustration ‘I can’t with these lies. I fucking can’t anymore’ you break off and feel some tears of frustration fall out of your face, which you try hiding from him. ‘did you really come by just to fuck me and then leave me?’
he looks baffled ‘what are you talking about y/n?’
a few seconds pass and he decides to try again.
‘Can we please sit down and talk?’ he asks exasperatedly.
‘Why? So you can tell me that we’re over, or that you did in fact cheat on me?’ ‘I trusted you, I really did. You knew what I went through.’
Instead of responding he just stares at you sadly. He has the audacity to look guilty, to look upset at this.
‘Please leave.. Please. I can’t do this, not tonight, not any more’
‘y/n, please listen to me, just hear me out-’ he tries to explain, at least you think he’s trying to explain, but you can’t bear to even hear his voice right now.
‘Please! Please leave!’ you wail.
‘I can’t leave you like this, I can’t.’ he says desperately, trying to reason with you. His body trying to inch closer to you and you pull back quickly, not wanting to be touched by him.
You let out a wet laugh
‘Sure you can, you’ve done it before.’ you know it was a low blow, but you honestly don’t fucking care how he feels right now.
‘Leave. I’m calling San.’ he scoffs at you, looking far too pissed off, something changes in his aura at the mention of his friend. ‘what a fucking surprise. The moment I leave, you call San, just like clockwork. You know for getting mad at me for spending time with someone else, you look pretty fucking hypocritical.’ he seethes.
Before you can even think it over, your hand meets his cheek. He stares at you in complete shock. ‘I would never do anything to betray you, Wooyoung. I love you so fucking much it drives me insane. I let you in, I never do that. I would never stoop that low. oh, and San? Your best friend? He’s a good person, and fuck you for thinking that he would do something so malicious’ you say then fall onto the floor and break into a sob. Barely able to breathe. this snaps Wooyoung out of his sudden anger and again, he tries to come comfort you and you just beg him to leave. Regretfully, he gives up and leaves, knowing that he can’t do anything to help you, not now. he did this to you, and as much as he wants to comfort you, he doesn’t deserve to. he tells you how much he loves you and how fucking sorry he is before he leaves in shame and remorse. You need time, he’ll try to give that to you. in the meantime, you’re left on the floor, in an absolute mess, having trouble breathing from the strength of your cries.
After catching your breath finally muster some energy to call San, trying to calm down enough to talk.
He answers after a few rings ‘Hey you, I was just thinking of you, I saw the weirdest goldfish at the -’
He stops talking when he realizes that you aren’t responding and he just hears harsh breathing on the other line.
‘You okay, princess?’ you just sob in response and that was all that he needed. ‘I’ll be there in ten minutes. Just breathe. Can you unlock the door for me? That’s all you need to do.’ he says gently. ‘Unlocked already’ you sniffle.
‘Just ten minutes.’ and he hangs up after a minute, promising to hurry.
There was some slight traffic, so San ends up getting there about 20 minutes later. The sight he finds upon entering the apartment is you on the floor, at the edge of your bed, curled into a circle with a bra and your sleeping shorts on, hickeys covering your neck and chest.
He doesn’t even need to ask to know that whatever happened was Wooyoungs fault.
He carries you as softly as possible to your bed, doing his best not to wake you since he knew whatever happened - you’d need the energy later to deal with it.
All he knew, was that he was about to break his friend’s nose.