So in seminary, my teacher, Brother L, started talking about the "Premortal Existence," when we "lived with God as his spirit children. " all 70 million of us. In just ONE of his "countless worlds," with people just like us in the universe, who apparently are ALL saved through Jesus's atonement, despite being on a whole entire different planet. He told us how we were "all born to a Heavenly Father and a heavenly mother," A heavenly mother, because he told us without using the word polygamist that God is a polygamist with tons of wives. He then proceeded to tell all the guys that THEY would have lots of wives when THEY became gods. So apparently on just THIS earth, there are more people(all Gods kids) than there are sands of the sea. And apparently there's more earths than there are sands of the sea, all of which have more people than the sands of the sea. God has kids like "sands of the sea" squared. He somehow knows each and everyone of us by name. And loves each and everyone of us so incredibly much. That's not even mentioning how in the "Premortal Existance" Lucifer was another one of Gods sons, and when the Father presented his "Great Plan of Eternal Happiness," God apparently said how a whole bunch of us would be "lost." Lucifer didn't like that, so he pretty much said "keep them all don't let them choose" and God just said "No you idiot agency is more important than having all my kids with me" and they had a war we all fought in and Lucifer was cast out of Heaven and became the devil. Brother L told us that "Sometimes kids don't make the right choices. It's up to us to try to save them, but even God had to kick one of his kids out of home." I practically left right then(I'm too much of a wimp too) but I stayed and listened to the rest. Man. I don't know if this is just the deep doctrine stuff that not everyone believes, but this isn't even all the absolute crap he said. I left school that day(it was my last hour) just feeling sick. The entire rest of the day I felt like absolute crap. I actually ended up driving to Walmart for some groceries for my mom, and I got one of those Sparkling Ice drinks. My mom doesn't let us drink them, cause they have green tea extract in them, and I just felt like SUCH A REBEL. It was such a tiny thing that didn't really fix anything, but it made me feel better than I did before. I actually sat in the parking lot drinking all of it so I could throw it away before my mom saw it and I felt slightly ill afterwards, but it was so worth it.