#exmormon

[hollow--the--knight]

hahaha i have to do the lesson tomorrow someone shoot me

anyways who has survival tips

[thegaysonrisesagain]

This video was fucking harrowing and traumatic to watch. All the events happening to him was so real that I can’t believe it happened to him. It was extremely heartbreaking. EXTREMELY

[jupiter-dragonsong]

Oh so when NEPHI finds a drunk man lying in an alleyway, cuts off his head with his own sword, steals his clothes, impersonates him and takes his stuff he is “valiant” and “a role model.” But when I do it I’m “a deranged killer” and “sickening” and “ladies and gentleman of the jury, this one is really fucked up.”

My mother did not have to explain to anyone why I was not at family scriptures tonight, because I was there. But at what cost?

[lemuel-apologist]

i think i just like learning and creating. it's always been a fundamental curiosity at the core of me. i was raised LDS and the biggest thing that stuck with me before i left was the idea that everything you learned was something you could take with you and use later, and i had a seminary teacher who said we'd never truly stop learning. i don't believe in that anymore, but i do believe in learning and in sharing and in creating.

i took up crochet again recently; the last time i tried was when i was eleven, as a girl scout. and I've been cooking and remembering how good eggs taste and how wonderful being alive is and how much i missed thinking about math in all my years of chemistry.

the idea of finding internal validation rather than external was something i had to learn really early on in my writing career and, recently, in dealing with my own health conditions. i like writing... because it makes me happy, not for the sake of others; i like working with others because i like the process, and I've been learning recently that there is no virtue in pushing through when everyone except me thinks i should take a break to get my blood pressure back up or stop whimpering in pain.

there is no virtue in suffering. who is going to look back on my life and go, "her suffering was so noble. and she died suffering, too. what an icon," really? for heaven's sake, i don't want to be remembered that way. it's important that it all hurts, but it shouldn't be the header to my life's article. im more than that.

and im more than the things i haven't done and the things i quit working on partway through and the skills i abandoned or never put to use. remember me learning and passionate and happy. please don't remember me as a ball of missed potential.

[prententiousjackal]

For every person who does deep reflection and analysis on the bible to make it fit sensible ethical beliefs, there's a hundred more people who will just read the surface level text of misogyny and genocide. It's becoming an increasing burden to try to interpret the bible to fit our modern sensibilities and morality. How much time and energy does every new Christian need to spend to put frosting on bullshit, so they can say they have good ethics which somehow came from the bible. How much longer can religion possibly stick around in situations like this. The struggle to interpret the bible to say something nice, must come to every Christian and not everyone is prepared to meet the challenge of all that cognitive dissonance.

I've grown so bored and tired of all the "well technically, the Bible says to be nice to women and treat all as alike to God" or "Y'know the Talmud says there are six genders" or "Y'know Jesus said eunuchs are valid and blessed". So tired of looking through Jewish or Christian commentaries struggling to find those scraps from Jewish Rabbis or Christian clergy, scholars and apologists who had a good idea after reading the Bible. The true word of God should not require so much effort to not see it as invoking hate and violence. Make it make some sense at every level of understanding and interpretation. Surely a god could do that. When can we finally just replace the Bible with a new foundation that doesn't need so many levels of shaky interpretation to finally see it as saying something good?

I'm getting so sick of feeling responsible to try to find all the small pieces of good in the book used to censor me, repress me, violate my bodily autonomy, give me the fear of eternal punishment, etc. The Bible has done nothing to earn my respect. The only minutiae of respect goes to individuals who bullshitted themselves a way for the Bible to align with true morality.

Reading scripture and its many commentaries is like an addictive self-harm that I just can't stop. Trying to understand how it was used to hurt me. Trying to see if I can play by its own rules to turn them in my favor and stop the all pain.

[less-the-provisions]

So I have a lot in drafts but I just wanted to post real quick about this video I found through the comment section of a Mormon Book Reviews video.

So this man's name is Dennis Schleider and he is a gay Mormon. Apparently the LDS church is probably planning on excommunicating him?

But anyway this video has to do with a possible economic collapse and how the church has been acting recently like there's going to be one (remember, they sit on a $300B hoard of wealth and have always encouraged members to store food for disaster so this is odd for them to finally start using it)

In Dennis's opinion the church is just trying to help people but as an exmormon... I'm lowkey suspicious. Would a collapse just be their big break to round up more vulnerable people into their cult (especially after a stagnation trend in membership)? Might the leaders keep their word on gathering back in Missouri for events interpreted as the end times? What's the catch? What's the incentive? That's what I'm wondering.

[the-spookiest-scariest-skeleton]

Day 4897 of wondering wether I’m actually on the ace spectrum or if it’s just because I was raised Mormon and taught that as an AFAB person my body was porn and sinful and that premarital sex was a sin just as bad as murder, yet simultaneously that as a woman my only purpose in this world is to marry as soon as legally possible and pump out as many babies as soon as possible, so I should try to be attractive and cater physically and socially to the men in my community. (But don’t be TOO attractive otherwise I’ll make their peeners feel funny and make them sin because I showed a shoulder)

[lizardho]

Bottom surgery was rescheduled from March 2027 to JULY OF 2026 LIKE AS IN THIS YEAR AS IN SO SOON AS IN I’M GOING TO CRY AND THEN WHEN I’M DONE CRYING I’M GONNA HAVE A VAGINA AND THEN CRY AGAIN