a great deal of my altbeing stuff is intertwined with my deepdaydreaming, especially because my vessel is nonfunctional so my IRL stuff is a mess
and it's even More now because I accidentally went and created an entire kintype from deepdaydreaming
and idk it feels super weird to say in altbeing spaces that this stuff I imagined became this altbeing experience because I guess so much stuff in otherkin online communities were "are you sure you didn't just make those memories accidentally by thinking too much about it" and that's 100% what I did??
I'm not saying my experiences are invalid in any way, and everyone's been kind and interested. It's just my brain being "how do I talk about this?? Am I explaining it right?"
it also ties in to my transspecies-ness and the fact that I am 100% of the time Not Human, you know? Everything is an altbeing experience because I am always this no matter what I'm doing or what's going on
... also the nonfunctioning of my vessel makes thinking and words really difficult lol