#wishtype stuff

[digidrakncreature]

It occurs to me that I didn't adequately explain the whole "wish-" thing

yes it's partially because I created the kintype by wishing too much

but it's also because that, the entirety of it, is my wish. It's what I want. It's how and where I want to live.

[digidrakncreature]

alterhuman blog of Gideon

it/they, early 30s

I'm transspecies and... most of my 'types kinda blended together which makes it a little difficult to list...

Me:

In a vacuum I'm the thing on the left, a blend/mash-up of everything.

In a transspecies way I'm a "(Deltarune-esc) monster-person" as in the right side of the image. (Basically drakncreature adapted into).

kintypes in the "I am a member of these groups" way:

- draknkind (HTTYD-ish) @draknkind

- monsterkind (Deltarune-ish) @if-wishes-were-glitches @earthdeluxe @notagargoyle

additionally:

canine-kith and canine-shaped things kith @caninequandary @suburbanwerewolf

▶- "digimorph" kardiatype

Uncategorized Scavenger-identity (maybe conceptfolk?) keystone... something

- "bug" conceptkith (both as glitches and concept of bugs)

- sitcom character archetrope (passive? secondary?) @last-laugh

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other sideblogs:

@transdrakn drakncreature blog where all my drawings and feels and reblogs go

I made @drakngoblincreature to reblog aesthetics and stuff because this one is more for discussions and transdrakn ended up being more specific drakncreature stuff

@neogargoylecore goblincoreish blog (+ shitposting + voidpunk honestly my favorite of my blogs)

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and jsyk, I have cognitive issues due to brainstem compression, so like. I'm so exhausted mentally and physically. My tone might be a mess along with my attempts at... anything really tbh? Just as a general disclaimer/warning x_x;

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Important links:

Outerverse Theory explanation

Short but full summary of my altbeing stuff

Gonna tag this post so you can click/tap through

[digidrakncreature]

a great deal of my altbeing stuff is intertwined with my deepdaydreaming, especially because my vessel is nonfunctional so my IRL stuff is a mess

and it's even More now because I accidentally went and created an entire kintype from deepdaydreaming

and idk it feels super weird to say in altbeing spaces that this stuff I imagined became this altbeing experience because I guess so much stuff in otherkin online communities were "are you sure you didn't just make those memories accidentally by thinking too much about it" and that's 100% what I did??

I'm not saying my experiences are invalid in any way, and everyone's been kind and interested. It's just my brain being "how do I talk about this?? Am I explaining it right?"

it also ties in to my transspecies-ness and the fact that I am 100% of the time Not Human, you know? Everything is an altbeing experience because I am always this no matter what I'm doing or what's going on

... also the nonfunctioning of my vessel makes thinking and words really difficult lol

[digidrakncreature]

differences between Delta/rune and HaM Earth:

- no dark worlds (afaik)

- I don't know because there's only 2 chapters of the game so far lol

[digidrakncreature]

[everything about my wishtype I was basically deep daydreaming up and then in doing so went and accidentally created the kintype for me]

a good tldr of the explanation of my wishtype lol

[digidrakncreature]

Why I refer to one of my kintypes as my "wishtype" (and sometimes "wishkintype")

So a while ago I went around asking about the exact definition of a linktype. Because I wanted to know if the 'type had to be something you intended to make into a kintype/linktype specifically, or if it was also under that if you wanted to be the thing so badly that you'd unintentionally created a kintype of it.

Oh boy. The chronology is already screwed here isn't it. Let's rewind a bit?

I am not a human. I've known that all my life. What I am exactly specieswise wasn't known until recently, but that's not relevant here.

I am not a human. But I love humans. I want to continue to live with them, alongside and intertwined. I just also desperately need my own body and the freedom to act a bit "not human".

This isn't possible on this version of Earth at this current time in history.

Enter Deltarune (and post-pacifist run Undertale). A fictional Earth where presumably humans and nonhumans live together in intertwined societies. An Earth where magic is a natural resource, where the nonhuman beings are just made of magic so their biology doesn't have to adhere to the rules of our Earth. But despite that it's still very very similar to here.

For a bit I indulged in fantasies about living on a version of Earth where I can just be myself and live the life I want to live as a sapient nonhuman being with humans in a mundane modern world without it becoming a creature feature.

And then one day I realized it's not just me and my life I'll never have because I can't go there. I realized I'd never see another monster IRL. I wouldn't be able to hug someone who felt like they were made of inorganic materials while still feeling very alive. I'd never just see other monsters go about their days. And the homesickness I felt tripled.

I'm told this identity feeling, even if I created it by accident, is a kintype. And I agree for multiple reasons. I am not using the word "wishtype" to say it is different or not a kintype. It's just to make it a little easier to talk about for me.

I don't have a "canon" to refer to. I don't have "canonmates" or anything. A lot of fictionkin and such terminology is inaccurate to me which is something I just can't really mesh lol.

And it's easier to group all of the related things together to talk about. My wishself and my wishlife and my wishmates, my wishhome, etc.

Also my "coretype", a mash of all my species identities together, is (sometimes) the same shape as my wishtype, which is a version of myself, my coreself, my coretype, that would be able to exist in person in my wishhome. Just unable to shapeshift and made of magic instead of meat or digital wireframe or whatever. So when there's two identical images of me, Gideon, I can say "this is my wishself and this is my coreself".

And you know what? The word wishkin always felt off to me. It felt mean and invalidating and kinda nasty. So I like the idea of taking the word "wish" back, you know? Wishes aren't bad things. Self-determination, having a piece of your identity simply because you want it to be isn't a bad thing.