3) Alright, so let’s introduce Alex Prosser, my first and last purely romantic crush. We met at 5 yrs old in Kindergarten, were best friends until 2nd grade, at which point he found out I had a crush on him. Then things got awkward, I started getting bullied for that + me being in the advanced education program, this all continued on for years. 5th grade I’m told he’s been talking about me and someone else said he had a crush on me, so I was like, yo, Valentine’s day is coming up? So 10 yr old Bri makes a handmade Valentine that had original 10 yr old Bri art and it was actually pretty damn intricate if I may say so and I was like, this is gonna be great?
Lol he made fun of me in front of everyone, tore it up, and threw it in the trash. After that he joined in on the bullying, it got worse, it was a mess, and I still somehow had this unhealthy crush on him? I didn’t mind if he was bullying me as long as he was around?? Looking back I think it was more of an OCD obsession than a crush, but yeah, everything slowly dissolved and I went into homeschool in the middle of 6th grade bc of all the shit that happened. Moved while not in public school, switched counties, and never saw him again.
Which, like, I look back on it with humor now? I found my old journal about him and laughed all the way through it and I’m very chill about it now. Thinking about him specifically still makes my heart twinge in a love-him-hate-him sort of way? Like indulging in a guilty pleasure. Basically he fucked me up for life and even though I’m over it I’ll never get fully over him.
Beyond that, I have had very confusing feelings for someone (confusing because I don’t really have any romantic attraction, not because I got scarred for live bc of Alex, I just haven’t been into anybody? and I think I’m into this person so idk what I am whoops) and idk how I feel about the situation in general and it’s 101% impossible for it to ever happen so *shrug* whatever
5) I’m really not sure. All of my birthdays have sorta sucked? Especially recently bc my family’s in a pretty bad financial situation rn so for instance, my dad gave me a donut for my birthday this year? That’s literally it and I nearly refused to let him buy me that. So presents have been rare recently and then everyone forces social interaction on me which stresses me about because I’m a huge introvert, so... oi. Probably my 9th birthday party. I had a sleepover at my mom’s studio and I was so proud of myself because I stayed up the latest. That’s all I’ve got.
9) Pretty much the hardest question on the list, especially because of how unhappy I am with my body right now. My hair, I guess? I have the thickest hair in my family and even though I’m too busy to learn any hairdos to try on it, on good days it looks pretty nice. Other than that, probably my boobs. Thick in the stomach = thick in the chest, and I don’t mind the latter I guess. That’s literally all I’ve got sorry
No Rest for the Wicked by Lykke Li, Dreams by Imagine Dragons, I Wanna Get Better by Bleachers, and Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve - These are the songs to describe me. Basically a bunch of self-depricating, cynical songs about the struggles of life and self and idk I just feel these songs all the way down in my soul.
THE ONES FOR OTHER PEOPLE... will be posted later. Because I’ve not spent 30 minutes contemplating this and I’m way overthinking it and I’ve got an APUSH test I should be studying for. I’ll put them up when I can finally wrap my head around my own answer! Sorry lol