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[rhp162]

[livelyyoungheart]

Hey-

.. how is finals week going?

... how have you been recently?

.... I miss you

...... I just wanted to talk to you again

....... I miss having you in my life

......... I heard you on the phone with someone else the other day, it sounded like something happened, are you okay?

.......... does this separation hurt for you too?

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Hey, I know we haven't talked in a while, but I just wanted to--

.. catch up

... see what's going on with you

.... hear your voice

..... get your advice on something

....... tell you I still care for you

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I want desperately to reach out, but I don't know if I'm allowed to text you anymore, so I delete my letters..

[gift-of-mercy]

[Post Deleted]

Does anyone else ever feel like maybe they’re seeing things that aren’t there? That’s all that seems to be going on lately. Everything starts to feel good and right, and then those...thoughts come back in. They remind me of what happens every time I get comfortable, and tell me the mistakes I’ve made, and the ones I keep making. I push all these buttons and when things are ready to explode, I’m stupid enough to push the one that puts me over the edge.

But then one of them tells me I’m not seeing things right, that there are people who care about me and everything is alright. And I get confused again, and I want to fall back in to that comfortable space all over again. 

Again, that word, “again” it tears in to my mind and I want to scream, because I’m just waiting for my next “again.” Becoming the silent, bullied kid “again” when Asriel left, failing the people I love “again” because I was too stupid and naive to do what had to be done. Being a disappointment “again” when they realize I’m nothing like them, and I never will be.

Shutting up “again” because I can’t seem to get it to stick that what happened to me is nothing compared to what’s happened to all of them. They, who seem to have this grand destiny written in to their very code, who shoulder so much more than I can even imagine, and I have the gall to let my heart break over something so small as that word, for seeing things that I can’t tell are true or not.

For feeling sorry for myself, when I haven’t done a thing to make me worth it.

[tender-indifference]

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They say that nothing, once online, Can ever truly be retracted. No uncertain terms, we know that This is always, without ending.

I think there was once a day that That brought comfort, reassurance That this thing we shared won’t perish, Un-mutating, everlasting –

We would throw our names in stars, Enthroned with Libra and Orion, Etched there for all eternity Upon the heart of galaxies –

But now, I want to wipe the sky And drown out all the light on earth. I never want to see again The things we swore we would defend.

Yet still, I’m faced with cyberspace, A realm I know I can’t contend with. The piece of me I gave the net, I can’t delete; I can’t forget.

- Inkstay, Dare to Write Challenge, Prompt 94

[kissmeinthegarden]

Still plotting on that but tryna convince myself to stand on business 🫠

[irnbraw]

Joke Miniaters don’t like jokes

SNP want there to be fewer jokes their expense ‘it’s distespectful to all the elderly that we killed and thought we got away with’ blurted out a SNazi moron…

[minccincinccin]

It's I guess just. High school drama y'know. Found out people were talking shit about me behind my back, people I thought were friends. Proceeded to try and paint me like the villain of the piece instead of just apologizing once it was leaked, or talking about it, or something. And that's fine, I wasn't perfect and I don't expect everyone to like me and acting like that's the case is stupid but I can't believe it all blew up over something so comically small (in this case someone else suggesting that tone tags could be used to clear up misunderstandings). I feel like I did more wrong like I must've really fucked up for them to treat me like that but by the same token I guess that just happens sometimes and some people find joy in making fun of other people and that should really be none of my business. Just the idea that I 'pushed people out' of the server even though I held next to no power is ridiculous and the people that were 'pushed out' chose to leave instead of. Apologize. Granted what I'm saying now is skewed because of course it is but I can't believe that the other party was also being shittalked when they did literally nothing wrong, they made that one suggestion and that was apparently enough to stir all this drama.

[surajitdey-blog]

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