#delicate diary

[little-teacup-11]

"Friendship or any relantionship isn't meant to be perfect, it will hurt and you will cry cause we are all different. For nothing in life is black and white, so much is different with specs and shades of grey as views on what is bad, hurtful, and cruel differ from one another. Intent and feelings matter. We are all truly different, and that's OK. Its ok to acknowledge we are different from each other, for what truly brings people to together is accepting that we are differences. And in friend that means accepting those differences and still choosing to be there for one another. Whatever I am weak in or can't do on my own, a friend can help and support me. And where a friend is weak or need help in, I'll be there to help them. To truly love and gather today in unity, is accepting that we are all different, and will never agree on everything. But still choosing to accept those differences and supporting one another, as a friend, a loved one, and another human is when we truly unite together as one. And truly say you love one another.~"

[little-teacup-11]

"What we put into the world, is what we choose to either carry within ourselves and give to others. Holding onto resentment and ill-natured feelings truly hurts you, as you suffer the pain and reflection of that hurt as it pours onto the you and the people around you. It only increases the pain of that burden and helps continue the cycle of hurt and anguish. To truly break such a cruel cycle, it begins within ourselves. Apologize when you hurt others, rather you were right or wrong, sometimes a apologize can do so much more then proving you are in the right. Somethings are more important and worth keeping then being in the right. Forgive yourself for past mistakes and judgements that have caused you and others pain. Nothing is black and white in this world, what may hurt you, may not hurt someone else. What's toxic to you, isn't toxic to another. Not everyone means to hurt you or wishes to attack you. Forgive others, not to give them another chance but to free yourself from negative feelings so you can live your life without there hold on you. To truly let them and their connection from you go."

"To anyone I may have hurt, rather I was right or wrong, I apologize and I am sorry. I never intended to hurt you. Hurt can live within a person. It lives and breaths in a person's soul and can truly do so much damage. And if I ever caused that pain to anyone else, cause them to relive a bad memory of a pain or trauma I am sorry. For sometimes, it may not always be about me, but the pain of that past wound and trauma. It doesn't make what I or what anyone else did bad, nor does it make you or myself a bad person, just a phantom of that pain was opened to bleed over. And I apologize for that, for no one in this world deserves to feel that pain. To break that cycle, it begins with me, with ourselves as a person. To hold ourselves and others accountable without malice, but with empathy and to help others grow. To respond with love, rather it's gentle, blunt, firm, or soft, it is all still done in love. What we give and how we react, is a reflection of us and what we choose to give and carry. How we chose to live and handle life and pain she will give us all reflects on us the soul we choose to nourish and nurture."

[little-teacup-11]

"I sometimes think to myself, am I truly someone that can be loved and cherished as I am? I am very sensitive and emotional, that is entangled intimately with reins of self-doubt, ghostds phantoms, and anxiety. Vines with sharp thorns that are wrapped tight around my soul, pierced deep into the bud of my soul flower, causing tears of blood to drip and fall like a waterfall. My soul is a burden even for me to carry so how can I expect another to truly love and cherish such a heavy burden? Scared to love for I do not want to hurt others or burden them.."

ʚ♡︎ɞHeavansMoonʚ♡︎ɞ

[little-teacup-11]

"I know life can be hard, especially in times of your darkest moments or period in life where you feel so hopeless and weak, that nothing you do, say, or feel does not matter. That it will never change or get better but remember, even the night sky, which is full of pure darkness and shadows has the moon and its gentle moonlight as a gentle reminder that even the darkest of place has a light to guide and protect you. Even your own presence has been the moon to another's night sky just by being by their side, giving them hope that their own life is full of meaning just by seeing their life through your eyes and soul. You are important, and maybe through the eyes of another, and the meaning and love you give to others, will hopefully show you and help you see just how important and valued you truly are. It will be ok.. "

ʚ♡︎ɞHeavansMoonʚ♡︎ɞ

[little-teacup-11]

"In life, especially in times of healing, self-care, and self-love for your mental and emotional health, always recollect your thoughts and feelings of not only yourself but those around you. Check in within yourself, ask yourself why are you doing this, is this honestly good for me, and how will effect those around me? It can be scary and overwhelming, especially for those who worry and over think easily, but this can possibly grow to a calming and soothing effect to calm your mind and your demons. It is OK, I believe in you, we are on this journey together. We will get better"

[little-teacup-11]

"What we have now, is a growing lack of empathy and self-aware. So many grow defensive and lash out, without truly hearing and listening to an individual. They see the person's heart or there feelings, just there own and it is sad. It is a for anyone now to show there love to another for if it isn't what a person wants to hear or want, they lash out. It is human nature to get defensive, we are all guilty of this, but this..is more then defensive, it is simply, if you truly are comfortable in your truth, why lash out? Words mean nothing when your reactions and feelings speak louder without you realizing. Lack of empathy in not understanding or wanting to understand others, it is no wonder many grow cold and uncaring. They are tired of caring and getting attacked over it. I still care and empathize but I am silent, more silent I should say. A quiet Spector, a ghost you can say who can only watch as her heart and soul cracks and bleeds.."

[little-teacup-11]

♡"It is ok to want space, sometimes we have or even require moments or times of it when we shut down and don't really have the strength to really reply to anyone. Could be a fear of hurting them, taking it out those around them, or just in a really bad place or mindset. It does not mean they do not value you, think less of you, that you did something wrong,or anything. Can it be distressing on the other end, yes. Stressful and even lonely, but sometimes as much as we would like them to always talk to us, or have them always tell us when they will be gone for space, life isn't always that easy or simple. Things can happen when a person just doesn't have the strength mentally and emotionally to do that. Or just in a position or state where they can tell us or be able to tell us. It is OK to miss them, to want to be there, it simply means you love and care for them. And sometimes, those times can show how strongly and deeply you care for each other, for anything you love and care about is worth the wait. For if we put to much pressure for them, we could really hurt the other when they fail to tell or force them to do it when they can't and risk a blow up as they can take their bad mood on you. A balance is always good, but sometimes exceptions and moments have to be acknowledged."♡

[little-teacup-11]

"The constant need to love and care for others is so engraved that is the core of the my soul and being. What gives me life that in essence, I care for others with the blood of my soul. Pushing myself down as I bleed in this cage of mine. Doing what others wish of me and putting themselves first for in my eyes, they are more important. All the love and care goes to them, leaving sharp, dangled blades all directed at me. My feelings, my thoughts, all are null.."