I have severely neglected this blog of late. Quite honestly, I'll come out and say that I've lost my muse for this Selphie. I say 'this' Selphie because, after much consideration, I don't feel that I have adequately portrayed her, and I have created such a different version of the Selphie that I would like to portray that if I were to suddenly change her, it would make absolutely no sense.
Regardless, here are the topics to be addressed in this message. You may read the whole thing, or sum it up for yourselves, but here is what I plan to do:
--Withdraw from Final Fantasy Unleashed.
--Delete this blog.
--Start a new Selphie RP blog (most likely under the same URL).
Any details on these decisions and their repercussions can be found below.
First off, I would like to say that this decision has nothing to do with any outside forces. No one has intimidated me or hurt me in any way, and I in no way intend to hurt anyone else with these decisions. These are personal decisions which, I hope, will not affect anyone but me. You can always reach me at any of my other blogs: Lucrecia Crescent RP Blog, Personal Blog, Switch OC RP Blog, and my new not-yet-unveiled Riko Mitsumi RP Blog. I will always be available to all my friends that I have made here :) I love you all, and every single one of you has helped me grow as an RPer.
This blog was my first roleplay experience ever, and I learned a lot from it. From my weirdly slutty Selphie at the beginning to her falling for Cloud and then Cid and maturing all the way... I have you all to thank for making this a wonderful experience for me. My writing has since grown better, as has my characterization and separation between mun and muse -- things I hadn't fully grasped in the beginning, and those flaws are the reason I'm starting over with Selphie.
Also, I still want to interact with everyone on the new blog I create. I cannot stress this enough. Starting over as Selphie doesn't mean that I want to wipe you all away. She will obviously have to start over with all of these relationships, but I would love for her to have the friends that she has now. Cid, Irvine, Quistis, male!Quistis, Aerith, and everyone else: I don't wish to abandon you; I wish the absolute opposite. I will come find you when I make this new blog and my new Selphie will be ready to forge new relationship with all of you. I (and she) love/s you dearly <3
Okay, on to the points. I suppose above I've already addressed the point of making this new blog and deleting this one, so the last point to address is my withdrawal from FFU.
This group has been absolutely wonderful, and thank you so much for accepting me and allowing me to have a great time with you guys. The events were always super fun, and the AUs were exciting to partake in, and even though I may not have been the best Garden Festival coordinator, it was still fun working with everyone and getting it all together. I really appreciate my time with you, and you're a wonderful group :)
Unfortunately, with my loss of muse and all, I feel that someone else deserves that spot much more than I do. Perhaps I may rejoin, or try to, with my new blog, but until I'm completely comfortable with my new Selphie I'll probably stay independent.
With those addressed, I'd like to say some things to some specific people. Pardon me for making this public.
deliveryboyxstrife: I want to apologize for shipping my Selphie with Cid while you away and not even consulting you. I know far in the beginning of my blog, we'd decided to ship our characters together in the long run -- but quite honestly, I was overwhelmed when you asked. I had just started this blog, my first RP blog, and I don't think I was ready to ship my Selphie to one person just yet. I wanted to explore her character more, and that exploration happened a lot with the Cidphie ship, along with Clophie. Their relationship still has a special place in my heart, and I hope you'll accept my apology.
shera-the-dream-destroyer: You are absolutely wonderful. You better believe I'm coming for you the second I make this new blog. I need my Cidphie, and my friend. I know sometimes I may come off short, and I may be hard to reach, and I may not be super-talkative ooc, but I really appreciate your friendship.
flower-girl-of-the-slums: You have been so sweet to me since I've started RPing. Thank you so much for everything you've done: making the background for my Lucrecia blog, giving me your number when you had to go away from tumblr for a while, and just being a fun person to talk to :)
marksmanirvine: You were one of my first friends here :) and you're still a great, adorable friend! I'm sorry we never got to explore the Irphie ship. Maybe that can change with my new blog!
chainsandwhipleather: I have loved seeing you grow while I've been RPing. Your Quistis is absolutely wonderful and you've only gotten better in all the time we've RPed together. You and Vincent (and the muns!) getting together is adorable, and I hope to be a friend to you. If you're ever having a down day, believe that I will always be there for you.
And to everyone else: Thank you so much. For RPing with me, for helping me grow, and for being my friend. I appreciate and love every single one of you.
Look at this, almost 400 followers and I'm deleting. It's a bit of a shame, but it's been a long ride, and I think it's time for me to do it right. Thank you all so much.
I will be changing the front page of my blog (I'll have to figure out how to do that) once my new blog is established so that it will link everyone to the new person to follow. I do hope everyone will redirect themselves to that blog, but if not I understand.
Goodbye, everyone, and soon I will be saying hello once more. <3
