so hey guys. i know i haven’t really been around and yes, expect more of that. it was just the first week and i’m already so damn tired of everything and i just want to sleep but i can’t ‘cause i have to memorize everything and i just want to lie down in all the paperwork and readings. this is generally what i am right now:
blockless. meaning i don’t have anyone i know to go with for every subject, except for my majors class
lost. the uni is enormous and my classes are spread out and every building i have classes on is either in the middle of nowhere or located at the other side of the campus
stressed. need i say more? other than college though, there’s this problem with transportation since i don’t have a dorm/flat near campus so i have to endure 2-3 hours riding the bus (which i probably killed someone for bc damn all of them are already full) just to go home.
but ofc that’s not everything. despite of my state generally being the embodiment of hell itself, i’m still happy. i mean, i’m living the dream studying in this uni and yes i hope i get to maintain my scholarship and my place in this thing (!!!) we were introduced to what will be our curriculum and all of these PhD professors were talking about the chem courses we’re going to have to take and it’s basically like watching a horror film and i can almost see my life flashing before my eyes. but seriously it’s pretty... horrific and challenging and i guess i’ll just take it one at a time. having said that, even though it’s pretty much a given thing, i want to say that i won’t be here as much bc i rly have to study and i’m sorry for the challenges/asks/messages that are going to be stuck in my inbox in the future. i’ll still check them out. i’ll dig them all out, i swear and i want to interact with everyone but i have to prioritize my shit rn and yes. i’ll be around eventually. xx