Bestie!!!!!!! I'm in late seasons John lived or was brought back feels and just
Also this put me back in my John and demon!bela feels
Omg dude, I just had this thought:
What if Huntercorp-ish AU John/demon!Bela. Treasure hunting (supernatural hunting + looting) empire building. Imagine our Sam and Dean finding out AU Bela is a demon. And also kinda their stepmother.
quite a few people requested hbo bela! i’m thinking she [claws her way topside after an eternity on the rack] [eyes blood-red, any warmth she had left seared away by hellfire] [finds her corpse moldering in an unmarked grave and restores it with pilfered magic and sheer force of will] [she’s been through too much in that body to let it rot alone in the cold earth] [stakes out a swath of crossroads and builds up her territory deal by deal] [destroys every contract signed by a child] [snaps the neck of any demon who dares ask why. pretty soon they learn to stop asking] [retakes the supernatural black market by storm, because she’s bored with dealing only in souls] [caches of stolen and bartered arcana scattered throughout the continental US] [weapons of heaven in a nondescript locker in Atlantic City] [Hand of God in a warded basement in Detroit] [luxury because she can afford it and because the slide of silk and marble on her body makes it easier forget the pit] [celadon teaware, perfume in crystal decanters, leather purses as red as the smoke under her skin] [negotiating with buyers over glasses of thousand-dollar scotch, in the plush back rooms of private clubs in London and Paris] [has Crowley’s real bones in a bank vault in Zurich. nobody knows this, including Crowley] [has the name and contact info of every supernatural power player on three continents, because that’s just good business] [if the thing you’re looking for exists somewhere between heaven and hell, the saying goes, Bela Talbot can sell it to you] [diamond earrings laser-engraved with warding sigils] [anti-summoning charm she got from some witch twins in exchange for a set of resurrection sachets] [burns Barthamus’s bones with a snap of her fingers, the instant he makes a play for the crossroads] [sends Toni Bevell back to the British Men of Letters with a warning and two shattered wrists, the first and only time they try to meddle with a buy] [tea and secrets with Rowena in the throne room of Hell] [brunch with Anael in a Manhattan skyscraper, champagne flute in one hand as she slides a strand of rubies across the white tablecloth] [tense season 9 meeting with the Winchesters to sell them the location of Nadia’s Codex] [laughs when Dean can’t quite meet her eyes] [lifts her shirt to show him the scar that runs up her belly, where a blade once split her open, spilled her entrails onto the rack as she wept and begged] [she kept only one scar from the pit: the one Dean Winchester gave her the first time he picked up the knife] [ignores the apocalypses that come and go] [she’s Bela Talbot, Queen of the Crossroads, First Seal of Hell] [she knows the world can burn and still go on. after all, she did]
hey did i ever mention that for a few days back in ye olde 2014, before s10 ever aired, i became briefly deeply obsessed with the idea of demon!dean becoming the new cain and recruiting demon!bela to be his second-in-command aka the new abaddon? i even decided i would write a multichapter fic about it but only ever published two chapters because 1) hyperfixation ran out and 2) i really didn’t think the plot through very hard other than “dean and bela being sexy narrative mirrors again except this time they’re Evil and Doing Crime for fun”. and frankly i think that was a good concept if not very well planned out!! sexier than the actual demon!dean arc we got at least!!
ANYWAY i never finished the fic but more importantly i DID make a playlist for it on 8tracks (because those were the cursed pre-spotify days) and while that playlist is also EXTREMELY 2014 i simply refuse to be embarrassed about it bc it DOES have bangers on it, and it’s, to this day, the only spn playlist i have ever made (yes. an au demon!dean and demon!bela playlist. i don’t know either. life is wild y’all). so i’m bringing it back like a ~blast from the past~ (and YES i even made a poorly edited cover and tracklist. what was i gonna do, simply not make a cd leaflet?! it was 2014.) you’re welcome ✨
it’s 2021 babey and you can listen to the playlist here ✨
(but because spotify is ~too cool~ to list dodgy youtube remixes and i want you to have the FULL cheesy 2014 throwback experience, here is the skorge remix of “sail” and here is the glitch mob remix of “seven nation army” )
and because i was a complete floozy for lyrics even 7 years ago... you can find the extended tracklist with significant lyric snippets under the cut. enjoy besties 💕
1. Feral Love // Chelsea Wolfe
Run from the light
Your eyes black like an animal
Deep in the water
2. Back In Black // AC/DC
Forget the hearse, ‘cause I’ll never die
I got nine lives, cat’s eyes, using every one of them and runnin’ wild
'Cause I’m back, yes I’m back, well I’m back, yes I’m back
Well I’m back in black, yes I’m back in black
3. Seven Devils - Florence + The Machine
Holy water cannot help you now
A thousand armies couldn’t keep me out
I don’t want your money, I don’t want your crown
See, I’ve come to burn your kingdom down
4. Lilith // Susanne Sundfør
As you lie across the table you swear and rhyme
You lie across the table, you swear and rhyme
Thinking that someone might suit your body
5. Sinister Kid // The Black Keys
I’ve got a tortured mind, and my blade is sharp
A bad combination in the dark
6. Heaven Knows // The Pretty Reckless
Oh, Lord, Heaven knows we belong way down below
Oh, Lord, tell us so, we belong way down below
Way down below, way down below
7. Small Pack of Wolves // Ramin Djawadi
(instrumental)
8. You’re Going Down // Sick Puppies
Define your meaning of 'war’
To me it’s what we do when we’re bored
I feel the heat comin’ off of the blacktop
And it makes me want it more
9. An I For An I // IAMX
Apocalypse and rapture signing in
(An eye for an eye)
If you’re not with us, you’re against
(An eye for an eye)
10. Lose Control // Evanescence
Mary had a lamb, his eyes black as coals
If we play very quiet, my lamb, Mary never has to know
11. Hey Man Nice Shot // Filter
Now that the smoke’s gone and the air is all clear
Those who were right there got a new kind of fear
12. Sail (Skorge Remix) // Awolnation
Maybe I’m a different breed
Maybe I’m not listening
(Sail with me into the dark)
13. Addiction // Ramin Djawadi
(instrumental)
14. Animal I Have Become // Three Days Grace
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
15. My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark // Fall Out Boy
Burn everything you love, then burn the ashes
In the end, everything collides
My childhood spat back out the monster that you see
16. Problem // Natalia Kills
We're hell raising and we don’t need saving
'Cause there’s no salvation for a bad girl
We’re rock bottom but there ain’t no stopping
'Cause they don’t know nothing about love
We're hell raising and we don’t need saving
'Cause there’s no salvation for a bad boy
We’re rock bottom but there ain’t no stopping
'Cause it’s you and me against the world
17. Smells Like Teen Spirit // Nirvana
Hello, hello, hello - how low?
With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
18. Everybody Wants To Rule The World // Lorde
Welcome to your life: there’s no turning back
Even while we sleep we will find you
Acting on your best behavior
Turn your back on Mother Nature
19. Gotham’s Reckoning // Hans Zimmer
(instrumental)
20. Seven Nation Army (The Glitch Mob Remix) // White Stripes
Everyone knows about it
From the Queen of England to the hounds of Hell
21. Iron // Woodkid
The sound of iron shocks is stuck in my head
The thunder of the drum dictates
The rhythm of the falls, the number of deaths
22. Get Lucky // Halestorm
Like the legend of the phoenix
All ends with beginnings
23. Bottom Of The River // Delta Rae
The wolves will chase you by the pale moonlight
(Drunk and driven by a devil’s hunger)
Drive your son like a railroad spike
(Into the water, let it pull him under)
Don’t you lift him, let him drown alive
(The good Lord speaks like a rolling thunder)
24. Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm of The War Drums // A Perfect Circle
I’ll be the one to protect you from your enemies and all your demons
I’ll be the one to protect you from a will to survive and a voice of reason
25. Animals // Martin Garrix
(instrumental)
26. And The World Was Gone // Snow Ghosts
I wish you’d felt me falling
I wish you’d watched over me
But I blinked and the world was gone
It took her a long time to climb her way out. Years above; centuries down below. She’d met him there, seen him periodically through his change. Hell was vast but Lilith kept her favourites close by.
She felt her own change as the days of torture blurred into weeks, months, years. Slowly the corruption seeped through her flesh and muscles and into her bones. Darkness that she’d never felt in her human life ate at her soul, whipping her raw nerves til they bled black.
The day the angels came, she was sent to the front line. Lilith’s good little soldier. She wore her black eyes with a perverse sense of honour and as the battle raged she fell back with her garrison.
Years of one goal, one mission.
Protect him. Defend him.
Give Alistair time to break him.
Oh and he broke so pretty.
He broke long before the angels reached him, yet they still fought towards him, determined to raise him for some future purpose.
She stood by his side until the end. The irony was not lost on her, and probably not on him but she never got the chance to ask. The angels came, burning bright and bloody, and destroyed most of her troop. She was unlucky enough to survive the onslaught; Lilith and Alistair took savage pleasure in the reprimand of the soldiers who failed.
The years passed. She studied, she learned; she watched the leaders change more than once.
Then she heard whispers, rumours, that he was coming home. He was so close to his own change back then, but they got to him before it was fully complete. Now, they said, he had black eyes and a blade of bone.
She waited. They all waited.
A new whisper spread through the halls - the king had given him up. Sent him to be cured (tortured, killed; there was no cure for them) by his brother and his angel.
She gathered a command and they started the journey topside. They needed to reach him before they killed him ... they needed to protect him. Bring him home.
Heaven had taken him once before. Now, they were going to get him back.
Bestie this is pulling me out of my funk and now I'm stuck here thinking of blood junkie John and demon Bela
Imagine Bella and Ruby being in different Hell factions... Wait.
Ok, John never died, because instead of Azazel wanting the gun and his life for Dean's, John agreed to drink Azazel's blood to save BOTH his boys. But he can't let them see what he will become, so Azazel fakes John's death as part of their deal.
John's first taste of demon blood is from Azazel's mouth when they seal the deal. He may not be the promised boyking, but the blood does awaken something in him. Azazel gives him just enough to feel that rush of power. Lets him hunt monsters and (unbeknownst to John, though if it weren't for the blood addiction he might think about it) enemy faction demons.
And John resents Azazel as much as he needs him, because no other demon's blood measures up. But when Azazel disappears and leaves John craving for days, he finds out Sam was kidnapped for Azazel's boyking battle royale anyway, and of course he shows up at the hell gate "as a ghost" and helps them kill Azazel.
Then John walks into Hell to look for the demon that holds his contract (and someone to bleed for his addiction). He doesn't find out about Sam dying and Dean selling his soul until he's already in Hell.
Time doesn't move fluidly for him down there, but it's not one month = ten years, because most of his time down there is spent hunting and bleeding demons, not being tortured in a time loop.
At some point, he's approached by Bela -- who took up demon status quickly down there and girlbossed her way into Crowley's circle (they're both double crossing each other, but they're also both against Lilith's faction). Bela tells John Lilith has his and Dean's contracts, and helps him get topside via Crossroads.