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[demuredusk]

I feel bad for being... well, kinda dead everywhere. As you probably read from the ask, I haven’t been well.

I’ve been feeling more drained and tired since my head is constantly thinking and overthinking. Full of self-doubt, negativity,  feeling unworthy and the fear of all this pressure in life put onto me. Anxiety and depression have been taking over more deeply for a LONG while and I’ve been nothing but tired from it all. Tired of beating myself up like this..

Yet despite that... everyone is still supportive and nice to me.

Everyone is so kind and understanding it makes me feel loved, a feeling I don’t allow myself to be indulged by. To be surrounding by all the love and care, no, I am here putting up a thick barrier full of pain and sadness and it makes me feel terrible to worry everyone like this.

All I’ve ever wanted, is to be truly happy. To be loved and cared for who I truly am. I’ve always wished that dearly. Yes life can be shit, but there’s nothing wrong in wanting to seek happiness.

I want to seek that happiness, seek some old habits of mine that were better for my mental health. Regaining some of my old roots that made things enjoyable without caring what others would think.

Ah I’m rambling... ffffuck-

Honestly though, I can’t thank everyone enough being so sweet to me. All my friends and all of you reading this though, I couldn’t be more happier without your love and care <3

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ZXK || Easter Kitty ||

· ❤ Berry Belated Easter, Yay · ❤

When you can't be the Easter Bunny because you have some damn cat features, you get; A very very V E R Y embarrassed Neko. Who will surely have her revenge on who made her wear it (no it's not Marimo, he’ll join along... s o o n)

Please Tumblr don’t take down these bun buns ;w;

Total Time spend: 15 hours + 10 minutes

Zoro belongs to:: One Piece

Kai belongs to:: ME

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When your mom isn't home while you're on cooking duty you finally play your OWN music on speakers than the lame-radio-music and blast it out WHILE cooking dinner with the slight anxiety of not burning the food. 

 H A R D C O R E   A D U L T I N G

This is softly why I can’t draw so much when my mom has her evening shift,. Perhaps in the hours I have left but feel too cramped to draw I should game/watch anime instead. Have SOME progression done in some of my hobbies ;w;

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GIMMEH A HUG YOU SILLY SKELLY! 

I’ve been crying through out walking in the town seeing all the Undertale characters. All the feelings, attachments from when I played Undertale where experience all over again with Deltarune.

God did I miss this <3

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Look up without in french <;

Am I doing it right?

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Smol Announcement:

I'll be going on a camping trip with my volunteer workers and the kids who signed up for it. I'll be gone from 30 May till 2 June. I got some art finished and ready to be posted soo apologies if I post a lot before I leave X'D

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No more butts? ;w;

I just realised something without double thinking about it-

My current late-Easter drawing has a butt view on it, nothing NSFW worthy buuuut knowing Tumblr there might be a change it’ll get flagged...

Well this is really upsetting

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No stream tomorrow, it's gonna be a 'festive' day for 'me' at 30 March. ;3