#depresseion

[guacandgore]

No shit, y’all, whenever I’m depressed I watch this and it helps a heap.

****disclaimer: this content is not mine personally. Please go support her YouTube channel, it’s lovely as heck****

[screamsofashadow]

Me: *gathers up some spare spoons and does something productive*

Me: *feels .000000017 seconds of accomplishment*

Me: *feels like a complete failure because I wasn't productive /enough/*

Me: .... thanks mom....

Me: *sits on my couch staring at a wall for 45 minutes because I just used my last spoons to do something productive but feel even worse both physically and mentally than I did before*

[x-mentally-unstable-x]

Free

I want to scream, but no sounds come out.

I want to bang my fists against a wall, but I can’t force myself to lift my arms. 

I’m stuck in my own head and I’ve come to the conclusion that there really is no way out. 

I’m trapped forever with the demons that torture me constantly.

They’re angry, and it scares me because I know I have no fight left in me. 

They’re soon going to take over and all I can do is lay there as they devour every piece of me that was left from the last battle. 

With cracked ribs and shattered limbs I stare stare from the other side of the mirror and I see someone looking back at me. 

Who is she?

She looks so happy, I don’t recognize her. 

Who is she? 

I realize that the person I’m staring at is me 

I bang on the glass and scream to be let out

I want to be free, why can’t she hear me? 

I sob as I try to smash through to the other side but it’s no use

It’s getting harder to breathe as my demons strangle me

I feel myself slipping away from the mirror and I can see myself cry from the other side 

What I was looking at the entire time was a lie, she wasn’t happy at all, she was dying inside. 

As I open my eyes I see my reflection staring back at me

I press my hands on the glass and breathe a sigh of relief

I’m finally free. 

[jaynnie-jane]

I had work today. It was nice to be properly distracted for a while. My brain was definitely not operating to it's normal standard.

I got home and almost immediately curled into a ball on my bed. The sadness isn't as intense today but the anhedonia is kicking my butt.