#depressikn

[chasing--suicide]

Is it bad that I had an asthma attack so bad the other day that I went to sleep and didn't plan on waking up. And I wasn't scared at all. ???

I mean literally had like eight people around me trying to wake me up because I couldn't breathe. And I just kept falling back asleep.

Besides the good bit of chest pain I had and the ridiculously hard time breathing.

If that's what dying feels like, that was actually blissful.

Definitely not good for my view on it already. 🏃🏾‍♂️🏃🏾‍♂️🏃🏾‍♂️

[the-end-is-kigh]

I dedicated several years of my life to an organization. Running a lot of things. Basically with no support.

And then one day, I realised I need to put me first. It's not helping me get a job, and I'm too exhausted after work, also, I was drowning because I was doing so much.

And I wholeheartedly believe in and support said organisation still, but honestly, going back now, I think could be a trigger.

[reality-suckssssss]

Every day I just feel so alone I'm not sure how much I can take it anymore. I feel as though I'm on my own little planet far away, away from everyone and everything.

[hewwovents]

IF YOU WANNA BE MY LOVER-

You gotta be able to deal with my overwhelming anxiety, crippling depression, and long list of family related traumas from my childhood that still affect me to this day.

[why-arent-you-running]

Can someone save me from my thoughts because I don't have the strength to do it for myself right now