#depressing posts

[uboatan]

t-this is me and my fwiends at the beach...AAAHHDBD I MISS THEM SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[thesoberbitch]

Me after blowing up everyone’s dash with memes about my deteriorating mental health and other depressing posts

[uboatan]

h-hewwo evewyone...maya is vewy shick today so they wet me use their tumbwr account...p-pwease don’t make fun of meeeeeee 😭😭😭😭

[aduck8myshoes]

today marks 6 months since my surgery

I have been in this new body I hate for the longest half a year of my life and I'm not even done with active treatment

tomorrow I am going to be subjected to even more permanent physical marks I don't want

I am tired. I already don't want to look at myself

I know I should try to look at it from the perspective of '6 months since they took most of the cancer out' but then I get a random ache or pain and am reminded that it could still be too late for that to matter. I could be fucked no matter what.

but in I go to get tattoos so they can aim the giant burns to what remains

[xlostlenore]

my random personal posts

(a warning; this is a very depressing and whiny post about money)

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i just got some really bad news regarding my financial situation. i live entirely off welfare and now TPTB decided to cut back on the amount of my benefits. which means i have to pay for my meds by myself. that’s 605 euros. and that’s freaking scary and i’m not sure how i’m gonna do that

i hate being at the mercy of ppl who have most likely never been poor themselves so they have no idea what it’s like

i’m scared and concerned for my future.