#depression studying

[adventuresinpyjamas]

yes I know, I'm late, that is my bad... I was so depressed this morning. never fear though because I just turned myself into a vampire and it helped

I have a QotD! (question now)(or 2)

Are you studying STEM (or STEAM, i fw that), Humanities, or what? What do you enjoy about the structure of learning in your subject, and what are you jealous of in others?

personally, as a humanities student primarily (arch is too humanities to be considered STEM by STEM, and too STEM to be considered humanities by humanities), sometimes I get jealous of people who have to study for exams, like in the good old fashioned route memorisation with flashcards and stuff... sometimes my brain just needs a break and to ingrain what I know directly into my subconscious. I get burnt out from writing essay after essay after essay, especially when my discipline at my university is notoriously difficult to get HDs (7s or As) in with essays. Sometimes I just want to learn, absorb and retain rather than have to create, yk? probably only bc I'm burnt out rn tho

Day 16 /28

124

to do

edit and cut down section of essay on Newes (again)

add to section based on the new docs found? (I think I will so it's not just a source analysis)

sift through bibliography to find sources

run/walk

once again I have added more that needs to be footnoted, so get onto that

email prof

see people (I'm going insane again)

write paragraph on Fian

write paragraph on daemonologie

make sure my essay answers a fucking question for the love of god

CUT CUT CUT CUT CUT (it is time to start culling words because I have no intro/ conclusion/ Daemonologie paragraphs and my wc is like 4.5k)

Aim for:

write intro and conclusion

cite as much as I can

choose semester subjects or AT LEAST look at pre-reading for Tudors and Rome

bibliography hhhhhhhh

I am sitting at the library and I look like a vampire for accountability, the only thing that is ruining my Dark Academic (tm) look is my massive fuckin computer....

also I realised yesterday how much I HATE using computers to study, I function so much better on physical paper... rip to me I should never have started taking notes on paper at age 10

Duo

3/3 lessons

0/7 spoken exercises

5/5 80% or higher

Forest

0/1 any tree

0/45 mins any tree

0/80 mins Plum Blossom (not a chance it is locked still)

sorry for the insanely long post btw oops

[teacup-alpaca-blog]

I’m feeling my depression coming back

I just feel soooo meeeeh ... it’s not laziness , I know that , I just feel so down and I can’t study or do anything that I like ... I just want to stay in bed ,,,

Spent the whole morning reading articles on how to handle studying and depression at the same time, and maybe I will try the “set small goals” thing and maybe try to put a timer , so that I can try to concentrate during 20 minutes and then 5 minutes or 10 of a break and then try to up it to 30 minutes.

I don’t know ... I feel so hopeless and the only thing that I  have a bit energy to do is to put some random crappy clothes and go for a walk in the middle of nature.