#deprosting

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at least they can’t be disappointed in me if i’m dead, right?

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it’s not that i’m scared i’ll die here. honestly that might be a relief. what i’m scared of is that i’ll never die. that i’ll live in the shadow of who i was yesterday for ever and i’ll have to live for ever. i don’t want to die early. but it always always feels like there’s no other choice. i don’t want to die. i want to go to sleep and i want to wake up either to a kinder world, or as someone who’s almost like me, but a little more likable.

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remembering that time i was in an airport and i kept bumping into my dad and saying “sorry!!” as a child does and after the third time he asked me,

“why are you saying sorry all the time?”

“because i did something wrong”

“then why are you doing something wrong all the time?”

that shut me up real fast.

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hi im willow! any pronouns, i am pro-ship, meaning i dont believe in censorship. not a darkshipper myself

art blog: @willowdoesarts

go follow it please 🥺

reblogs: @willow-reblogs-too-much

any/all pronouns, or hell, mirror pronouns. idek man

genderfluid (maybe?????), any pronouns because whatever, ace, who knows life is short and i am shorter . maybe one day ill find labels but for now take that

fandoms:

super obsession:

- murderbot (eeeeeek)

fandom of the week:

- prolly project hail mary

decent enough:

- sky cotl

- searching for a world that doesn’t exist (holyyyy shit)

- tgcf svsss mdzs

- pjo/hoo

- lotf

- cult of the lamb

- 3 idiots

- mcyt

faded or fandom-in-law: (meaning my best friend is obsessed with it)

- pjsk

- dbd

- mcsr

tags are: (probably forgetting something but oh well)

#my art #willow's art (for my art and drawings and stuff)

#spam reblog (for when i spammed a reblog. happens too often)

#my art but bad

(for when i post an art i’m not super happy with. if you only want my good art follow the art blog)

#fever dream (when im sickposting)

#sp notebook (my original posts- only put into use recently so further back ones wont have it)

#deprosting (my original depressing posts)

#schoolposting (kind of self-explanatory? when im tweaking about school and stuff)

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ok but if i’m excited for july to be over and im excited for august to be over and im excited for september to be over and im excited for october to be over and im excited for november to be over and im excited for december to be over and im excited for january to be over and im excited for february to be over and im excited for march to be over and im excited for april to be over and im excited for may to be over and im excited for june to be over the. wtf am i living for

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everybody is mad at me i think

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hi. im willow. if i do one (1) wrong thing i will cry. i am undeserving of love

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2 days into the class thingy im taking and i already wanna kms from the workload. this was supposed to be fun. im in spain for god's sake.