#destipocalypse

[bidean-byedean]

The fact that the gif of Jen and Misha dancing on set could’ve literally been inserted into 15x20 and it would’ve made sense is so poetic I don’t even know where to start

[fuckalongthelines]

Listen I know a lot of you hated the ending but honestly I am so fucking content right now I’m not saying it was good OK don’t mistake my words the ending was shit it was so bad it was it was really bad but I got what I wanted they’re dead and that’s what matters to me honestly I don’t care what anyone says they’re gone they have everything they need jack tore the walls down out of heaven meaning it’s just a peaceful earth dean was able to live out the rest of his life the rest of his existence without hunting and he couldn’t have done that if he would  have stayed alive. Sam got to raise a child grow old like he wanted to. And the good thing about having a neutral peaceful heaven earth is that Cass is out of the empty and the ending leaves room for interpretation anything could happen in heaven he has his parents down the road who knows who else is down the road who knows if Cass popped in or out you don’t know.

But something you do see ,something you just feel ,something you just know , is that they are at peace and after everything they deserve that.

[bidean-byedean]

I don’t think this person was spurred by the ongoing *drama* but this turning up on my timeline after Misha asked us to help him understand is very serendipitous. I wish that I had the power to send this and make him see, but you guys might like it too!

A few wonderful examples that perfectly illustrate what “bury your gays” really means. We have been buried through deliberate omissions by the editors of history, even in spaces that are suppposed to present objective historical fact.

Anyone who has ever studied classical literature knows that translators butchered the queer out of Greek and Latin art and life. “Does he speak Latin” was a well known phrase to mean “is he one of us” - but when the Latin gets translated for the masses, it gets sanitised. There’s no missing the irony.

We had to codify our lives, speak in tongues, learn to say the obvious without saying it at all. The bury your gays *issue* is not that Castiel literally died for “being gay”, not really. It’s that he spoke the code so fluently for so long and when it came to light, the speaker was silenced. It’s that Dean conversed with him for years in our language and was silenced. It’s that the queerbaiting history is part of this too! It’s not about this specific, isolated moment!

The problem is they spoke to us in our own language, one of secrets and subtext and double meanings, then called us delusional. The problem is when they finally said the unsaid things out loud, that was punishable by death, over and over and over.

[bidean-byedean]

Not to be a complete fucking drama queen but

it’s all ruined???

Every single moment of Team Free Will is tainted.

Every single happy moment is leading to this heartbreak.

Everything single heartbreaking moment is leading to this heartbreak.

Everything they fought for comes to nothing.

Everything they learnt, everything they overcame, every step forward they took to becoming the complex, beautiful characters we know

It’s all undone by this

No one gets an ending that honours anything they’ve been through and

I can’t watch it happen again?

I can’t watch Dean and Cas fall in love slowly and all at once, through every tiny smile and look and touch, knowing they never get to dance.

I can’t watch the brothers protect each other from so much, all the time, knowing neither of them get the reward they deserve.

I can’t watch the actors put so much soul, so much heart into everything they do to make this little monster show into an epic love story of found family and finding yourself

only for

This

I’ll get back to reading fics and codas and metas, I’ll try and support cast, especially Misha and Jensen, as I can but I just... it hurts 😞

[bidean-byedean]

I’m a Dean girl

sometimes it gets lost in the Dean/Cas drama, in how much I love Misha and Cas, but it’s always been Dean

Dean Winchester had the most gut-wenching story because for 15 years we watched Jensen Ackles grow into the most meticulous actor and advocate for Dean. He created a piece of art in Dean; the utter commitment to his humour, his anger, his tenderness, his trauma, it’s all there for you to see. 

and now this

Scared, in pain, getting the death that he saw as a punishment, that he thought he deserved because he was of so little value to the world. After everything Dean did for the world and the people he loved and himself what did he get?

Nothing. 

Cas’ confession wasn't just for him, it was for Dean, it was the moment that Dean Winchester realised that he deserved to be saved. He’s not a killer. People love him and he can love them back, but he didn’t get to say it!!! He didn’t get the happiness of having or saying!!! 

His whole world was transformed by Cas’ words and for what??? So he could straighten his shoulders and carry the burden of the unspoken for the rest of his life??? Can you imagine the utter joy that we could've have had in Dean getting to say something back!!! The one thing he never said in his prayers to Cas!! 

he wanted to tell Cas, he was done with hiding and following orders and being someone he’s not, he was finally ready to be happy

and instead his life gets stolen by a stupid mistake. His little brother watches him die from the same injury that took him all those years ago, but now they’re alone in the universe. The universe that DEAN WINCHESTER SAVED turns its back on him in his final moments. 

Even his heaven is compromised. The unsaid thing is still there. Are you telling me this what he deserved? What queer people deserve??? After laying down his entire life for love, Dean never gets to be open and enjoy that love, he carries it around like a scar that aches on cold days. because Dean is queer, just because you stop him from saying it doesn’t make it not true!! And he’s supposed to be fine with that because nothing changed for him. Ever the soldier, ever the protector, ever the heartless weapon. 

we poured ourselves into this show and Jensen took on that responsibility, playing Dean with so much care and attention, and this is what we all got in return. The message that you compromise. That some things are best left unsaid. That some people just don’t get to be happy.

my fifteen-year-old self is grieving today and I will let her. For ten years we told the writers what they needed to do: either let us go or treat us right and they did neither. I hate this. I feel so tricked. Forever, the last thing Supernatural decided to tell us and Dean, after we saved the show for so many years, was that we are and have always been a joke to them.

so, yeah, I should have known better, but like Dean, I just hoped that they would have allowed us a moment of affection after all this time. The writers knew the importance, they knew that they could cement their place in TV history forever, but instead they played us for hype and views at the very real expense of people’s wellbeing. I cannot imagine what happened in the studio for this to be the ending that they were happy with. It hurts and comforts that Jensen hated this as well. I wish he was given the respect he deserves, I wish he was able to say goodbye to Dean in a way that he felt good about, I wish it didn’t have to happen like this.

[bidean-byedean]

*whispers to myself*

It’s just PR

It’s just PR

It’s just PR

[bidean-byedean]

[bidean-byedean]

I thought Jensen being so eager for a revival before we’d even got the last two episodes was suspicious and I was so right 😂😂