Stressplanation
Hey there folks!I'm just here for a quick moment to explain my post absence this weeks and what's going on.
Basically, I've come to the realization that (despite my attempts to take breaks and keep myself sane) that I haven't been mindful of my actual stress levels. I've been doing the easier part (taking breaks) without making sure that during those breaks my brain actually detangles and feels better.
Gist is, I've been working my brain on low-grade anxiety and stress for weeks without facing it and (understandably) it totally wiped me out and made me exhausted.
I spent Monday doing chores and assessing myself, and Tuesday literally sitting down and making myself brush through my thoughts like it was knotted hair. I feel a lot better even with just one day of this, but I still will be taking things slow.
So, for now, I will only be posting chapters on the weekend. I may post extra (because I'm helpless) but I'm trying to lower the amount of stress and pressure I'm putting on myself. I am doing a lot right now: extra housecare, dog care, teaching myself keyboard, working out my body, working out my singing voice, and writing several stories/projects, from these fanfic novels to some contests and some other books. And that's not even including the meager paid work I do to keep my bills afloat.
I have a lot of goals and I think I just thought in this time I needed to be doing more, I needed to be more successful, and was just scrambling way too much. Even music (which normally made me so calm) became a part of my music lesson because I NEEDED to get myself in order for my bard ideas.
While being an organized person with goals isn't bad, I clearly need to chill the fuck out.
Sorry for missing a little while now, but I should be back this weekend and I can't wait to share my new chapters. Take care of yourselves and love y'all <3
