I wish I had never transitioned at all I wish I had never tried testosterone I wish I had never tried to change my body I hate this I hate what testosterone is doing to my body I hate the irreversible changes that are happening I hate how people see me now I hate testosterone I hate testosterone I hate transitioning I wish I had never tried it because now I don't know what to do I don't know what to do because I think I'm stuck because it's the only thing that makes me feel like I can get up in the morning but I hate it I hate it I hate the changes to my body I hate my appearance more than ever I would rather have remained a crazy woman I would rather have remained an insane woman I hate this I hate these changes to my body I hate them I hate them I hate testosterone I hate testosterone transitioning was a mistake it was a mistake it was an irreversible mistake and I wish I hadn't I wish I had never tried to change my body I'm so stupid I'm so stupid I'm so stupid stupid stupid