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I wish I had never transitioned at all I wish I had never tried testosterone I wish I had never tried to change my body I hate this I hate what testosterone is doing to my body I hate the irreversible changes that are happening I hate how people see me now I hate testosterone I hate testosterone I hate transitioning I wish I had never tried it because now I don't know what to do I don't know what to do because I think I'm stuck because it's the only thing that makes me feel like I can get up in the morning but I hate it I hate it I hate the changes to my body I hate my appearance more than ever I would rather have remained a crazy woman I would rather have remained an insane woman I hate this I hate these changes to my body I hate them I hate them I hate testosterone I hate testosterone transitioning was a mistake it was a mistake it was an irreversible mistake and I wish I hadn't I wish I had never tried to change my body I'm so stupid I'm so stupid I'm so stupid stupid stupid

#shame #detransition;#regret;#despair

regret of the times ( soojung x jongin )

< @pevrlscent >

as the youngest sibling, soojung learns that more often than naught, the short stick always falls upon her. without fail; if there's something to be done, soojung is to be the one. if something goes wrong, it's on soojung's hands. it's always this, always that. soojung has learned to take the brunt of consequences well; she has learned to take orders with grace and dignity.

but a hate grows, licks in her gut; volatile and wild as she stands next to her siblings, head held up high as she grazes her eyes over the dancing crowd. her fingers are clasped together, tight and white knuckled-- and the touch on her shoulder has her tensing.

"near the back corner. near the duke-- you see him, yes?" the hushed voice of her sister's echoes in her ear. soojung blinks, gives the slightest bit of a nod. "that's him. you do your best, make us proud. we'll do everything else." soojung fights back the shudder; what horrible things her siblings have done, will do to the life of this man. all for the sake of wealth, for safety.

"of course." she whispers, and with a tap to her shoulder, she's off. heeled feet clicking against the floor as she crosses the ballroom. she holds herself with the dignity, the grace of someone refined-- of someone who knows luxury like no other.

she swallows back the nerves. she's done this countless times before, bare the ring of so many men on her finger she's long since stopped counting.

"hello," she greets, a small, simple smile on her face as she bows her head. "a sir, kim -- kim jongin, was it?" her head tilts the side, curiosity shining in the depths. practices, perfected; soojung almost feels sickened with how easy it becomes. "i am honored to meet your acquaintance."

#krystal.#regret;

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" I really hope she's alive. "

#answered #regret;#sweetpxa

Dear mom,

Dear Mother, I have moved to America. I got to see New York! I cannot believe the food! It looks disgusting, honestly, it is all greasy and unhealthy. But I loved Pizza. It was delicious! And hot dogs? They are not made of real dog. I should have believed you, the tender told me what they are made of. Other animal parts they do not use in other things. It is just, sausage. Kind of disappointing. You would have loved it, the buildings all high and kind of scary. Of course we do not live in New York. It was just our first stop. We live in Riverdale in Marys Land. It is still big in comparison to Raduga. I will be starting school next month. I need two more years of it in America. It is not very fair. But they do not have uniforms or anything that sucks like that. The appartment we have is small, upstairs too, it hurts my leg to go up and down, but I think it will be good for me. Maybe my leg will get better. How are you? The afterlife sounds scary. I hope that you are in heaven, or nirvana, or some sanctuary of a place. Reincarnated into something strong. Anything really. If you are a ghost! Then, I would like to say I love you. But I hope you can pass on, no need to stay around mother, Natasha is taking good care of me. Father could probably use your company more then me. I just hope he keeps seeing those people we paid for. It was pretty expensive along with plane tickets and trying to get insurance. It's all very confusing and new here... I hope things will get easier. For both of us. Where ever you are. And with me here. Love, Arvo. The letter is placed in a box with several others and pushed back into his closet.

#answered #mother #regret;#pxltron

i'M SO MAD ABOUT YORKALINA DOn"T EVEN TALK 2 ME

#anger;#regRET;

I always thought I was never the kind of person that would do the awful things I did to you. I am no different from anyone else. I am selfish, I am wrong for wanting another chance. I don’t deserve you.