#devan rants

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Throw back to my Teen Wolf fandom days, but I legitimately can not remember if Boyd and Erica were actually in a relationship or if we the fandom just made it up.

Also I'm almost wondering if they brought Cora in just to try throwing the fandom a bone and give them a female version of Derek to make the Sterek shippers shut up?

And seriously, what the fuck was up with the last season? They really did us all so dirty with that ending. Like I get that it was all uplifting and cool, but that cliffhanger? Bullshit.

I'm not going to get into the fact that I'm not a Stydia fan because, honestly, I was so tired of the ship wars by the end of the series. It was draining. Whatever, it was a show and the queer baiting sucked but let's be real, we were never going to get bisexual Stiles.

I just wanted a nice little wrap up, but instead we had them gearing up for another fight and then nothing.

I'm definitely still pissed about Isaac, because we all know that he would have been at Scott's side in a heartbeat.

Anyway, Teen Wolf still makes me mad to this day.

Oh my Gods, I'm going to retwatch it all.

[hoodie-gay]

The shitty thing about having a chronic disease in the middle of a fucking pandemic?

Sometimes my body shows symptoms of COVID.

Like right now, I have a blinding headache, I'm dizzy, extremely fatigued, and not to mention nauseous and there's a high chance that I'm going to get sick at work.

From what I can tell, I don't have a fever but I'm freezing even though its 25°c outside and in the store. I can't even tolerate the chicken noodle soup I brought.

I just want to curl up under my desk to minimise the chances of me falling because I'm that dizzy. I can barely stay sitting.

It feels like someone is driving an ice pick through my left ear and eye at the same time.

It's only been 12 days since I was last hospitalised, and I would really like to not go back again this month.

I just want this to stop. I'm so tired of feeling like garbage.

[hoodie-gay]

trying to fill out my gender amendment and name change forms and can't figure out if the name I've been using for two years is really the name I want forever or if there's something better I can come up with because I don't want to have to jump through these fucking hoops ever again especially because it seems like they make it more difficult every year for trans individuals to move forward in their transition and I'm so tired of existing in this nightmare society and would like to move into the woods and live off berries and creek water and inevitably become a cryptic urban legend that terrifies suburban white people and they warn their children to never go in the woods especially at night and you can hear me screaming at ungodly hours because the stress of existing in an inherently trasphobic society drove me over the edge and I completely snapped and finally went feral

[hoodie-gay]

Hi hello, I would just like to say the my province is the only one in Canada without a mask mandate. There has been a surge of proud boys in my city and they are pushing back against wearing masks. I am terrified to leave my house. I hate this fucking province, I hate anti-maskers, I hate every single person who has said "well it doesn't affect me, so I don't care."

Fuck you. Fuck you so much, I'm visibly trans and I have a chronic disease. I have friends who are in danger on the daily because they are BIPOC. Sure, it doesn't directly affect you, but where the fuck is your empathy. How can you not want to fight for your fellow human beings? What the fuck is wrong with you?

Anyway, I'm mad and scared and everything is trash

[hoodie-gay]

I have to talk to the coworker that I made out with tomorrow because he's giving me a ride to the mall so I can meet the woman who's buying a pair of doc martens from me and if it goes poorly I'm going to bail out of his car on the highway i stg i am not in a place to deal with any more emotional distress i will leap into oncoming traffic 100% this is a shitty situation that drunk me has caused and this kids is why I have a strict alcohol intake and I damn well should have known better than to drink as much as I did and I dont know if I actually like him or if I'm just lonely after being in an almost year long relationship where I was treated like shit and oh my gods I'm gonna unlive myself if he gets upset about this and I just realised that I've used little to no punctuation in this but I'm too rattled to go back and fix all of this im so sorry hahahahaha fuck

[hoodie-gay]

Okay so there were a lot of big changes at my store recently.

My manager quit.

We got a new supervisor (y'know, that position that was originally promised to me.)

We started doing skip the dishes (I just had to set it all up myself because the supervisor asked me to take his shift because he did not want to do it himself and now I have to do the training session and make sure everyone else knows how to use it)

The new supervisor cleared out all the paperwork that we're supposed to keep for a full year.

The new supervisor doesn't know how to do his job, so I'm doing it for him and am still not getting paid for it (I verify and recieve all the orders myself, I'm in charge of training, I look for coverage, I order the ice, I make sure to tell the area manager when we need things, I keep everything organized, i make sure everyone does their close correctly) literally all he does is make the schedule and he can't even do that well bc now one person isn't even getting hours at all.

I'm so tired of this that I'm actually debating on transferring to a different location.

I know that if I do transfer though, that everyone else will basically get screwed by this new guy WHO WAS HIRED PURELY DUE TO BEING RELATED TO THE AREA MANAGER.

I'm so tired of this. My manager had the right idea.

[happilydev]

People who ask a million questions about a movie you're both seeing for the first time .... Why?? I don't fucking know I am watching it for the first fucking time too

[happilydev]

"I don't mean to complain, but-"

Sarah shut the fuck up yes you obviously fucking do