REALNESS: Let’s talk appearance. It’s been on news overseas lately and is regularly on my mind anymore. I have an extremely important event coming up, and it continues to bring this topic to the forefront. Every single day I think it can’t be worse, but it does. My hair is falling out soooo fast that it’s crazy. I don’t know what pants will fit me from day to day, and shirts are just the same. I’m still exercising and all, but nothing is changing for the better because the roids and such are still in my system. Between the disease pain, the pain on me from this swelling pushing my painful areas, and the mental pain, my appearance is a struggle. I don’t even know what dresses fit or not anymore, for the important event, and I’m not going to buy more not knowing how my body is going to be next week. I’m trying to figure how I’m going to handle seeing people that are going to talk with me and haven’t seen me like this too. Watching my hair fall out when I’m doing everything possible and I’m supposed to have flowing hair, is hard to deal with. I literally pick up wads of hair throughout the day. I’m taking biotin and vitamins. Just last year my Drs and hair girl were commenting on how nice my hair was getting and filling in. Not anymore. There’s not enough contour in the world to hide these roid cheeks and chin, or belly or... I won’t even let my friends see me like this. How do you deal with these types of situations? . . . . #IBD #DevilsTicTacs #mentalhealth #cheeksfordays DYNAMO #MoonfaceForDynamo #ShowMeYourMoonface . (In photo: me circa 2009, Late October 2014, Early March 2018-bigger since photo). . . . . . #inflammatoryboweldisease #IBD #crohns #ulcerativecolitis #colitis #INDcolitis #IC #inflammatorydisease #ostomy #ileostomy #colostomy #crohnsdisease #autoimmunedisease #makeup #photography #prednisone #entocort #corticosteroids #devilstictacs