#diaryentrynipats

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I'm just plainly toxic as a person.

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My friend's ate told me, "Di ka na nagpo post sa twitter."

what I told her: Sa tumblr po ako ngayon. Hehe

what I really want to say: I'm an attention seeker. So pag walang pumansin sa mga tweets ko. It'll just make me feel that no one really cares for me and my shts.

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dzai, yung ex ko mag kaka anak na naman. samantalang ako, napapanaginipan pa rin siya from time to time. joskopow

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I'm not the jealous type of girlfriend but when it comes to friends and family, ay dzai.

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So. Yesterday, I slept from 4AM to 11:30PM. It's one of those days wherein I just don't want to get off of bed and continue "watching" my dreams like its some sort of a tv series.

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I have this very close friend. She's one of the kindest, most genuine person I know. I am very proud and happy for her (no echos, I'm always proud of my friends' milestones). But I started to distance myself, I hid her stories and my days. I have nothing against her. But I needed to do it for my peace of mind and for me to stop wallowing in self-pity.

Ok lang ba?

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I was thinking, I'm 24 and never pa ko nasurprise ng kahit na sino. Tas narealize ko, may isang beses pala.

December nun, nasa province na ko. Then my on and off bf that time told me na hindi siya makakauwi, hinatid niya lang yung pinsan saka mama niya sa bus terminal, pero may padala daw siyang donut for me. Naniwala naman ako hano. Ang galing.

The next morning, ginising ako ng tito ko kasi daw may nag hahanap sakin, lalaki, dzai babae yung pinsan niya. So paglabas ko, shookt dzai, si koya mo ang andun.

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I'm so excited to meet the best version of me.