Astral vs. Mental Illness
Okay, I found a topic for me to talk about.
So I have DID. I’m not going to explain what that is right now, because it’s not a magically based thing and multiplicity is not unfamiliar to these communities. But I have DID. With that comes a nonmagical headspace-- as near as I can tell, a representation of all of our individual minds tied together by our singular life energy. It’s a whole planet, with planes just like the outerworld.
Now, I’ve been trying to get into astral travel. I would like to start small, in our mindspace, where we can get a grip on being in the astral while still being protected. The problem with this is, I can’t find anything on how to actually do this. I’m sure people not versed in DID would tell us that our headspace is also our mindspace, and that is just false. Our headspace is not connected to astral at all, it’s not demi-astral, we can’t add a door from there into an astral plane. It’s just fundamentally not the same sort of thing. But everything I can find was presumably written by singlets, or at least not medical plurals, and as far as I can tell for them their “headspace” and mindscape are one and the same.
I don’t have any fucking idea how to work around this. I don’t have any experienced friends in this area-- I don’t have any experienced friends period. And despite knowing of a lot of experienced people here on tumblr who are definitely skilled enough to at least point me in the right direction, I am too autistic to know if it’s appropriate to ask any of them for help. A lot of them have very big blogs and aren’t welcoming of tutoring requests without pay, and I am dirt poor. I could go on a rant about how paywalls only affect poor people and keep us uneducated and unable to access the opportunities that higher class people have but that’s not relevant to the topic.
There’s also the problem of our astral body being.... sort of big. and bright. Sort of a raging beacon of light that draws dark things like moths. And because we experience paranoid delusions, I Cannot Tell if those dark things are actual threats or just my own fears fucking with me. Again, I’m sure an experienced astral traveler could give me some good pointers on this but I don’t have anyone I can ask. So I don’t know if we even need to bother with the safety precaution of mindscape before free travel.
There’s also the other problem of us being some kind of energy leech, but we’ve never been able to explore it and so we’re always at very very very low energy levels, physically and magically. For small spells we’re good enough at energy work to not use our own unless we have to, but astral stuff requires more. I don’t have anyone to feed off of, and because of quarantine and being high risk we don’t have the advantage of leaving the house and getting at least a little bit of a charge off ambient energy. Basically, as always with me, I have a lot of problems and no solutions.
If anyone knows good posts or articles, if you could be so kind, PLEASE point us to them. If you have experience circumventing any of these problems yourself please contact me. I’m not going to be bullied out of learning because I’m “too sick” and I’m not stupid enough to put myself in danger by winging it, so don’t just tell me to figure it out on my own.
Feedback is welcome.









