#diffidence

[laleonessasolitaria]

Poi mi chiedono perché sono così diffidente.

[romanticlandscape]

это так странно.

я чувствую себя меньше других людей. как по росту, так и психологически.

в детстве я очень стремилась казаться старше, чтобы все воспринимали меня как взрослую, серьезную, самостоятельную. в подростковом возрасте это переросло в дешёвую показуху. сейчас же, когда я могу показать это своими поступками и действительно делаю это, мною иногда овладевает такая тревожность и неуверенность в себе, хотя сейчас и нет поводов для нее. будто окружающие насмехаются надо мной или осуждают. будто считают меня глупой или инфантильной.

это бывает не так часто, но иногда мне кажется, что я буквально меньше других людей. у меня присутствует чувство, что на меня смотрят свысока, будто я снова ростом 140 и мне 12.

я не знаю, откуда идут эти комплексы. хотя даже комплексами это назвать сложно, скорее страхи и неуверенность.

я бы не сказала, что меня слишком волнует мнение окружающих и такие приступы не мешают в целом мне жить нормально и не влияют никак на мои поступки и решения, но мне довольно некомфортно, когда я снова начинаю ощущать это внутреннее давление. мне не нравится чувствовать себя слабой. а именно в такие моменты я наиболее уязвима.

[jarel-dot-thepoet]

Diffidence

Complacency walks with

norms. How easy it must be

to trudge carelessly, or perhaps unkownigly,

of who you truly are.

Does it ever grind your gears to not hear

the sounds that give you eargasms?

Stuck in beautiful, toe tapping

tunes because of

June July August.

Falling in between lines of homage.

Traditionally we are

supposed to crack the egg first to make

the omelettes. But

what happens if we lay the cheese first? Or

meat and veggies?

Twirling thoughts like spaghetti, I find it

all the more difficult

to be different when

difference has the same letter count as

diffidence. Daring

to ooze with confidence.

(And so does he.)

As though being yourself is the

one and only thing

ricocheting the inner

feeling of true

living. Mirror, mirror

on the wall will we

ever be ourselves when

the heaven's call?

Answer is abnormally harder than what you may act, think, or perceive.

To be or not to be

is the question. Shading greys don't stand out as much as

fading pains.

Painting pain is

Pablo’s

misshapen ways taken in as ugly stains but how I see it me is

taking pain made in factories of unsaid things -- made beautiful.

I feel.

Today is change.

Like springing away from winter

not just for weather's

change. Purposes of speculation that people just as trees must grow,

differently.

Equally to stand

tall with

outstretched limbs.

Grabbing at stars

cause we all are.

Straws not to be shortened, life's suckings,

lo we

are all

important.

This poem was inspired by conversation from @heartofmuse. It is so easy to fall into norms. Merge into what everyone else is doing but it is more self exhilarating when you can be yourself. There are billions of people. It is important to be you not one of the billion instead one in a billion. It is a fight to do so though the fight is worth it.

[sluggoonthestreet]

Angus always feels a little flat in the Fall.

[j-august]

Bold is thoroughly sincere in his patriotic endeavours to mend mankind, and there is something to be admired in the energy with which he devotes himself to remedying evil and stopping injustice; but I fear that he is too much imbued with the idea that he has a special mission for reforming. It would be well if one so young had a little more diffidence himself, and more trust in the honest purposes of others,—if he could be brought to believe that old customs need not necessarily be evil, and that changes may possibly be dangerous; but no, Bold has all the ardour and all the self-assurance of a Danton, and hurls his anathemas against time-honoured practices with the violence of a French Jacobin.

Anthony Trollope, The Warden

[goenglishvocab]

Diffidence – meaning, usage, quotes, and social examples

Diffidence – meaning, usage, quotes, and social examples

[responsivevoice]diffidence[responsivevoice] [ dif-i-duh ns ]

What is the word of the day?

The word of the day is ‘diffidence’.

What is this word’s grammar?

The word is a noun, i.e., it is the main subject of a sentence.

Does the word have a past tense? What is it?

No, the word is a noun. Therefore, it does not have a past form.

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[ukdamo]

She Was a Language

Rizwan Akhtar

“The limits of my language means the limits of my world”

Ludwig Wittgenstein.

In the sobering glare of afternoon

her skin glows, eyes stay behind

steamy spectacles, I clean them slowly

winter leaves a hazy legacy on eyelashes

loading analogies, when she inhibits a smile

I introduce words, my intentions

are paraphrased like a tradition

timing her tongue to silence

using lengthy phrases, too soon

I run out of pages and scamper for elbows

her braid sways like a sentence

whirling me on a mystic path

unaware of end

space shudders to perfection

there is need to conclude her

in a manuscript.

[juliakhar]

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