#digimonghostgamekin

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benefits to kinning a character before the end of a show: i have prior knowledge of things that will happen in the future | cons to kinning a character before the end of a show: the unending anxiety of possibly finding out youre not source compliant with every new episode - (gulus)gammamon (#⚡️🐈)

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its been a long time since ive had so many memories so frequently, its actually hard for me to keep track. sometimes im not sure if its just a random thought i think would be cool for the series or an actual memory - (gulus)gammamon #⚡️🐈

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no. no no no. oh no this is giving me an anxiety attack. im not ready yet. i want my resolution. its not time yet. ITS NOT TIME YET. I DONT WANT TO BE PUSHED AWAY. I DONT WANT TO BE REMEMBERED AS THE ‘DARK EVOLUTION’ THAT HAD 2 APPEARANCES IN WHICH IT CALLOUSLY EXECUTED 2 SERIAL KILLERS, AND THATS IT. I DONT WANT TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING TO GAMMAMON. I WANT MY RESOLUTION, I WANT TO BOND WITH HIRO AND THE OTHERS, I DONT WANT TO BE FORGOTTEN. I DONT WANT TO BE FORGOTTEN AGAIN

im so scared that now that canoweissmon IS here they can just freely access it, and i will be forgotten. i am NOT gammamon. gammamon cannot ‘control’ me because we arent one. Hiro snapped Gammamon out of giving control of our body to me, and that was probably the right choice, I’m not sure even I could’ve taken down Myotismon AND Matadormon. But I don’t want to be forgotten. I’m scared I’ll be alone again, or worse even, that now I will be considered a straight up villain. I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want Hiro and the others to forget about me, to abandon me, to hate me. I don’t want this to mean that I am not getting a resolution, that I’m not going to be a part of the group, that my interferences mean NOTHING.

I’m scared. Hiro, everyone, please don’t abandon me. I don’t want to be alone again - a very distraught Gulusgammamon who just finished watching episode 25 (#⚡️🐈)

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I miss Hiro. I want him to hug me again. - Gulusgammamon (#⚡️🐈)

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I keep having this dream of me calling out Hiro’s name over and over again and it’s driving me up the wall. Is this a memory? Why can’t I see anything in it? Why am *I* calling for Hiro, not Gammamon? Where is Hiro? Why does it always end before I can hear Hiro, or anyone say something? Is Hiro even there, does he know I am crying out his name in despair over and over again?

It feels like a nightmare. I want Hiro to hug me again, to hold me again, to tell me it’s okay. Despite everything, he made me feel safe - he was the only one who could always convince me of that. When I was with him, I no longer felt watched by dozens of Digimon whose names I don’t even know. He would always protect me, even if I was the one who should be protecting the both of us, like I’d promised.

I just want my big brother back.

- Gulusgammamon (#⚡️🐈)

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everyone: “gulusgammamon is gonna be a major if not the main villain” | me, crying: “noooo im just a little bastard i am not evil i just like causing chaos and giving karmic justice to those that deserve it and also protecting my technically little sibling gammamon and im just traumatized as fuck by my own past so i come off as cold n edgy because i literally had to fight for my survival every day for years and had no friends bc our would runs on a kill or be killed basis” - gulusgammamon #⚡️🐈

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Angoramon. Jellymon. If you’re out there. Come here I owe you guys so many hugs and cuddles and smooches. You guys are the best partners I could have wished for. Thank you for helping me when I needed it, even if I denied that vehemently. You guys are the best. - #⚡️🐈

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me: has what feels like a kin memory of dying and turning back into a digitama | me: nervously sweating because last time i had this kind of feeling not only was it true but it was also source compliant despite me being vastly canon divergent to the point i didnt even really kin from the show at all - gulusgammamon/hackmon (appmon) who does NOT want to do this shit again (#⚡️🐈)