it’s dark here. a kind of dark that doesn’t require sight but sense to understand. the floor is flimsy and creaks, and the air is cold and stagnant in a way that would ward off even the most curious souls. holy oil set alight surrounds them, and the leather straps keep their wrists pressed against splintered wood. what they demand is not in their power to give. what they can provide, they don’t deserve. they won’t accept this. they’re not a violent breed, but with each word, each cut, an electrical surge. faces familiar take turns before there is a light. like a film reel set on fire, the scene around them catches and melts, and the remaining pieces of plastic and silver float down into a black liquid substance swallowing their feet. she is there, too, with a tangled mess of burning tape in her hands ─── it zaps and crackles, but she doesn’t flinch, even as it begins to melt her skin.
WHAT IS THEIR NIGHTMARE ?
to bring harm to/cause pain unless absolutely necessary. pik is a pacifist. countless orders they’d carried out throughout their existence that’d suggest otherwise have and will continue to haunt them, but of these orders, in which they were appointed to slaughter in the name of their father are of the most tender. there wasn’t anything they wouldn’t do for god, but this is what ultimately led the devoted to disobey the first time, and they paid dearly for it in the form of being torn from earth and cosimo ( @violentdesires ) and caged in heaven for millennia. since their return to earth as a defective whitelighter and then, invasively, a seraph, apart from their time with pyrend and defending faerie as it was under fire, they hadn’t hurt a soul until they were tricked and tortured by a group of angels for information, and after having exhausted every avenue, saw no other alternative to reclaiming their freedom. this choice weighted them and made them unstable in every sense of the word as halloween approached ─── on which astra ( @likestvrlight ) was caught in the crossfire when her touch triggered a chunk of those memories to transfer onto her. that they afflicted her with their pain has reanimated their nightmare, worse so as the act has alleviated them of it.
IS THERE MORE THAN ONE ?
two others that stand out: incarceration and loneliness. all that time in their cage is to blame. after a while, one must regress into the recesses of one’s mind to keep from going insane, and during that time, pik uncovered their own cope-topia. being confined to one spot for any given period still horrifies them, and the lack of socialization while stored away in heaven prompts them to continually seek out the company of others as they can. this assists in their what others might deem maddeningly clingy nature ─── which the recluse darcy ( @hlcynsouls ) had the misfortune of undergoing before their ascension and what their current roommate, ms. plantar, weathers everyday. thus far, these two nightmares have been far tamer than the former, but they’ve been having bouts with each, particularly loneliness as they tend to internally seek out incarceration as a form of self-punishment, since the party.
HOW IS IT AFFECTING THEM, IF AT ALL ?
badly. as pik’s nightmares were coming to fruition even before being plagued by them, they’re going through it and are desperately seeking out ways to rectify what they’ve done and how they can prevent themselves from ever doing it again rather than uncover why they’ve been so aggressively on their mind.
