#dimitrifictive

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i never really like to think about doubles. they kinda... upset me. >_<

but even then, i gotta wonder: how many me's didn't make it?

how many me's ended up not getting the same freedom i did? how many me's ended up getting roped into something bigger than themselves, and not making it out? how many me's were controlled? how many me's ended up dead? how many me's ended up never seeing a blue sky?

i feel so bad for all of the me's that didn't or couldn't make it. my life wasn't perfect, not at all, but it was better than what some of you ended up getting. at least i made more friends than just oliver. at least i it to earth. at least my friends managed to live. at least i made it out.

i don't say this all to brag, i promise. just... let my life have been for you guys as well, okay? every time i did something, whether it was going out shopping with my friends, or trying a new food, or seeing a new movie, or finding something new to draw, or visiting an aquarium, or playing a new video game- let it have been for you guys, too. you all deserve it. we're all victims, and we all deserved better.

so even if doubles make me uncomfy... let my life have been for you all, too, okay? my life was not only for me, but all the other lems, and dimitris, and whatever other names you guys might find yourself going by.

i love you all. take care, ok? ,:]

- dimitri 🍋 (a madeleine phantasms fictive)

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lgbtq canons!!!

um!!! im transmasc n gay ^^ i thought i had a crush on oliver for a bit when we were still getting to kno each other cuz!!! he was the only person that was actually being nice to me back then n i guess i thought my appreciation of that was like, me being into him??? it wasnt, i like oliver more as a friend than anything but still ^^ ive thought other people r pretty too tbf!!! :D

i can speak for elliot too!!! um!!! hes genderfluid and asexual!!! romantic orientation is up in the air but we think he might also b gay??? or at least hes mainly into guys. demiromantic too, we know that for a fact!!! :)

most people from source r lgbtq in some way tbf so!!! rlly i could just go down an entire list but i'll spare everyone the trouble /silly

- dimitri/lem!!! 🍋 (madeleine phantasms fictive!!!)

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i wish more people liked me. its selfish but i rlly wish people liked me. oliver and elliot did, and i made friends when we got away from madeleine, but... i dunno. i didnt do anything wrong, but i was always treated like i didnt exist, or like i was secretly evil, or like they just didnt. wanna talk to me??? and it hurts a lot. it hurts knowing no one wanted to be my friend. i wanted to be everyones friend so badly but then everyone else just kinda... ignored me. like people still talked to me, but aside from oliver n elliot??? nothing. not until we left madeleine county at least. but i was stuck there for so long. it sucked. i wish people didnt ignore me the way they did. i wish i had friends besides oliver n elliot. and thats not to say im not HAPPY i had them!!! i just... yeah. ,:( again maybe this is rlly selfish but right now i dont rlly care ,:(

- lem/dimitri 🍋 (madeleine phantasms fictive)

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As a fictive/fictionkin of Dimentio, I have an inmate desire to perform and entertain the crowds. Unfortunately, I currently occupy a body that goes into a frenzied state of fight or flight the moment I have more than 2-3 pairs of eyes on me.

The brain is a soup of anxiety disorders, depressive disorders, dissociative/derealization disorders, and personality disorders from both the A and B clusters. Even less fortunate for me, I've been chosen by the brain as the "Issues Georg" of the system, meaning I'm a catch-all, jack of all trades sort of symptom holder.

Such is the tale of my endless woes, etc etc.

Ahahaha. Stars I'm tired. /lh

- ★ Dimentio/Dimitri

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I remember when Dedue told me, "I cannot know happiness without you by my side."

Dedue, if you're out there I hope you know I share the sentiment entirely. I don't know happiness without you by my side.

I see you as my inspiration to continue on. I look for you in every person I meet. Whenever I achieve anything, all I can think about is the fact it would've been better if you had been by my side.

Without you, it's hard to feel faith in anything. I don't even have faith that you'll come home to me. So, just please have a good life. That's all I can bring myself to beg of you.

– Dimitri (#🗡️💙🦁 , please tag as fictive)

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