#disabledandbroke

[kmunnangel]

#sucksbeingsingleandsick

I love my kids. I love my grandkids. I feel guilty and awful. Their 'father' my ex is taking my sons and their families to the beach. Why does he get to take them to the beach? Do all the fun stuff? Always? I get to get up early and feed them, watch them. I get the grunt; he gets the glory? I have little to no fun in my life. Being on disability, I can afford to go nowhere. He throws in a beach trip and you'd think he invented sliced bread. I've washed their bodies, their clothes, their toys. Babysat. Been there for every event. I'm so grateful to know them. I just wish I could have more fun with them. I'm jealous because he married $ and he can throw it at them. I can't

[kmunnangel]

#disabilitysucks

To those who think I'm not disabled and can't work...(it's not going to be pretty so if you don't care for bad language, don't read it...)😡😡😡 To all of those who can LOOK at me and DIAGNOSE ME based on how you think I look or behave. You are FUCKING AMAZING! You can diagnose me like a hepatologist(autoimmune of liver, stage 4 cirrhosis), rheumatologist (fibromyalgia), neurologist (migraines), endocrinologist (hashimotos/hypothyroidism), psychiatrist (anxiety and depression), orthopedic surgeon (totaled 2 cars). That's AWESOME that you have those skill sets and you feel the need to tell me what I need. All the $ I'll save on MRI's, endoscopes, ultrasounds, bloodwork, urine work, X-rays, medications, therapies, etc. , time and effort going to see all these docs because YOU can LOOK at me and know I'm not REALLY that sick. That I REALLY can work because YOU think so. That I'm not really in that much pain, feel that awful because YOU KNOW MORE THAN THE PHYSICIANS, and ME. Hell, super man only has X-ray vision. You're better than super man!!! You could make bank money doing diagnostics at hospitals with your ASTOUNDING SUPER POWERS. So why aren't you???? Yeah, that's right. You know shit about what's going on with me. So STFU. Quit being so judgmental. Just love me where I'm at or GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY. I only have time for the lovers, not the haters.

[kmunnangel]

#vacationenvy

Well I have it; vacation envy. Worked since 13. Disability at 50. Raised 3 kids by myself. Now that I have the time, I don't have the money nor the health to travel. I have a boyfriend, who apparently has no problem vacationing w/o me, I need to take matters into my own hands and plan my own vacation. I want to do something I haven't done yet. NYC and see ground zero and a show. That's what I'll save up for.