Goodness the kinshifts have just been coming in waves this week.... While I'm in Discord MLP mode, I think I want to just... Air a few thoughts out, i suppose, since i talk about this fictotype so rarely.
I wish folks would not reduce my existence down to being Fluttershy's... Well to put it frankly, boytoy. She indeed meant a lot to me, don't get me wrong--but 1.) Tragically it wasn't like That, I'd always preferred stallions suffice it to say (really, just look at me--you'd think it were obvious!), and 2.) I WAS just as close with the other girls! I'd even go far as to say more so, at least in the case of Twilight.
And that's about where I was headed to from the start of this. I've thought about it on my own of course, but the lovely mare sending in 'ask assignments' here (hello dear, you are a GEM, I hope you are having a lovely day if you spot this) recently is to blame for this recent bout of it.
As much as we love to proclaim that we should be able to talk to our friends about anything, the fact of the matter is that we can't. Certain folks can't jive with certain topics--can't grok it, commune with you about it on the same level, no matter how well you explain it or how much they love you.
Immortality is a tricky thing. I've dealt with it in a number of lifetimes, and it has it's virtues, but... Theres aspects to it that you learn not to bring up with your mortal pals, when you can help it. I remember talking to Twilight about such things, as the years dragged on. It was heartbreaking watching her learn what it is like--coming to terms with it. But she dealt with it well, with a grace much like her teacher's.
I just want to gush about how proud I am of her. She was magnificent. She changed the world for the better--and I don't think it matters if it lasted or not. She gave so much for her subjects, and she deserved to rest. She new harmony would return in it's own way--it always does. That is simply the way of things. Can't change it any more than you can turn off gravity (myself being the exception, obviously). Sunny and her friends are worthy successors.
For a bit I had been worried about it, but I get the sense that here leaving was bittersweet, and not simply a tragedy. I could not follow wherever she went--but that's ok. I just hope she got some well deserved R&R.
And wherever she is now, I hope it is comfortable. I hope she, and all the girls, can be carefree and happy. I hope you are all loved. And if the situation is not ideal, then... at the very least, there's me--I still love every one of you. I'm cheering for you. I always will, and that is a promise.