Hello! I'm @/kuroocrow! I honestly don't think I ever had a mod name here or I don't remember it oops! (Might have been Mod Nozomi?) I just wanted to make this post to address some issues I noticed.
No, you never introduced yourself. I looked for who you were when I joined the blog so I could coordinate who was doing what tasks so we weren’t stepping on each others toes and what not.
So, I joined this blog when I was... 13? 14? Somewhere in there. It was quite a few years ago, like, towards the beginning. I didn't stay on for long since I was overwhelmed by the amount of asks and everything. I was excited to a part of the community but didn't realize how much work went into it! (So, mad respect mods)
But you told Maude you were 18 on the mod application. Also that your name back then was ‘Jay’. That wasn't very good of you, honestly. There's a reason they asked for adults only. Because children shouldn't have to deal with both school/life and how busy the confession blog was back then. Plus Maude is an adult, and moderating a blog with children wasn’t something they were comfortable with. That was a rule I remember suggesting them to put into place because they should be responsible about members, since they would have to coordinate with other mods constantly.
I never deleted asks (maybe one or two that went against the rules, but never without reason or at random.) I get there may have been confusion because this was at the time when Tumblr like.... really sucked. It still does, honestly.
I can't believe this at all. I've seen messages disappearing from the inbox and queue and published posts. I know they were deleted because they still remain in the activity page even after being deleted or published. I'VE HAD MY OWN CONFESSIONS DELETED!! I’ve refreshed a page and seen them disappear. Tumblr has problems, but never randomly deleting published messages.
Popular blogs are having messages and asks disappear, tags aren't working right... it's a mess. But, I never intentionally deleted asks anyone sent in.
Who? What blogs? I asked tumbling-star about this and never got a response, but that’s understandable. I said I wasn’t comfortable with continuing a conversation because of you being so strange to other mods. This whole mess was upsetting and I didn’t want to continue it. If you mean deleted messages containing adult content, that's due to the Dec 17th TOS changes, not tumblr bugs. And it's known how tumblr tags function at this point. Ask any gif maker or graphic editor how to tag posts to appear in the search index.
After a bit I left the blog. (I'll explain why I'm still here hang on) I was afraid and honestly felt guilty for abandoning it so quickly after I was trusted to join. So, I avoided contact with the other mods in a sense of Dumb 13 Year Old paranoia. It was a dumb decision to not explain then, and for that I apologize.
NO YOU DIDN'T. YOU NEVER LEFT THE BLOG. You have been a member this entire time. You blocked me after i asked you to leave the blog. That was in 2016. The tumblr timestamps say its been that long. It's been four entire years since you have blocked me. You have ignored mod Maude's many attempts to contact you. I have no idea if other mods even tried reaching out. I'm so upset with you. You had four entire years to do something. You have not been a 'dumb 13 yo' for some time. Again, you would have seen confession ask messages in your inbox. You would have known you were still an admin level member of this sideblog.
When the other mods reached out I felt confused? Now the messages make sense, but then I didn't understand the context of "please leave the blog or at least do the work".
Again, four entire years. I sent you multiple ask messages until you blocked me. Maude sent you messages. Idk if other former mods did, but I assume so as well. I had sent you a single DM asking you to leave the blog. I still can't DM you even to this day. You blocked me for sending that DM. I respect being blocked, even if I cannot understand why or what I've done to deserve that. I've never circumvented being blocked on any site.
Also, confused? You were too confused to reply back with ‘huh?’ or ‘what do you mean who is this?’ I know you had responded to an anonymous message Maude sent to you, to see if you were actually replying to ask messages. You didn’t have them ip blocked at least.
I thought I had left the blog already since I couldn't access it on mobile, so I was just more frustrated and honestly kind of scared. Like I said I was 13 and thought I'd get hate mail for leaving. (Dumb, I know.)
This makes some sense until it doesn’t? I can understand being thirteen and foolish, but it’s been four years. You know there were messages sent into the old confession blog, constantly, daily, hourly, for four whole years. You would know you were still a blog member because you'd get notifications and see them in your inbox. Are you really saying you never went to the /inbox page in four years? Where you would have seen confessions sent to the old confession blog in addition to those sent to your main blog? That somehow the old confession blog tumblr was never visible in your blog list? That is confusing to me. But then again it’s not like I can check if you ever answered ask messages in the mean time since your blog isn’t visible to me.
I just wanted to clear the air and for the other mods to know there was no ill intent. When my friend sent me the post talking about it they also tried to reach out the the current mods and explain so I wouldn’t have to make this post, but got no response. But after a couple days of anxious impatience I decided to just make this post.
One person [your friend?] contacted me. This is the entire message I replied back to them yesterday, February 5th.
https://fictionkinfessions.tumblr.com/private/190691574104/tumblr_9t5Lnor7sd771GPWt
If they said I didn't respond to them, I cannot say why. I private replied that message, and xkit’s Outbox function saved a copy of it. You know my main tumblr blog, which is listed in the old confession blogs members page. I even linked @diemenkin, on the old confession blog mods page. I made a post about that, and mentioned it a few times, like in this post. You were / are a follower on the old confession blog. You must have seen that. You could have contacted me at any time.
THERE WAS NEVER A FAILURE OF COMMUNICATION ON MY PART. I responded to your friend ‘tumbling star’ yesterday. YESTERDAY! February fifth! It was not multiple days. I tried contacting you multiple times until you blocked me in 2016. Specifically 10/25/2016 as per the tumblr DMs.
[ Other mods meaning Vagabond, if I recall correctly, me, Maude, and I think a mod named after a moth. There may have been a sixth one at that time, but it’s been years and I don’t remember.]
And Maude had DMed you multiple times when they were still active on the blog, asking if you were alright, what was going on, if you needed help understanding what to do. I know that because they told me in our skype chats back then, worried if you were mentally alright or needed support. You never responded to them. You never blocked them like you did me, and as far as I know you're still tumblr mutuals with them.
Everything that has happened is a response to you ghosting multiple people [me, Maude, all the other mods], misusing the old confession blog, and in general making incredibly poor choices consistently.
I was a real dumb kid and I made some shitty choices. I am so sorry for this misunderstanding.
If you're sorry, please leave this side blog. You're not a child any more. Go to the members page and actually leave the blog. That can be done on mobile. I’ve done that for other side blogs, myself. Own up to what you meant to do years ago, and let’s be done with this mess.
Right now, I can't accept any apology when you have acted like this for so many years. I know it’s just a blog on the internet, but still, I'm so incredibly hurt and upset by your actions. I don’t want to be, but I’ve invested so much time and energy that it’s hard to remain clearheaded sometimes. I need time to recover. Four years! More than 111k posts I made on this blog! You keep saying you had no ill intent and I wish you’d make that reality. I am sorry this all happened and I regret that it’s come to any of this. I wish this can just be resolved and go our ways without further harm.
