7.2.21
Weighed in last night at 210.8!!
GOAL THREE REACHED BITCHESS!!
113 hours & 14 minutes since ive let any food pass these lips. I feel so fucking empty inside its amazing. I feel light and floaty and airy!!
People have been saying things to me left and right about my loss (almost 31LBS thus far and more to come). They keep asking me how I do it and commenting that i have amazing will power. It feels scary to be noticed though bc that means there is a noticeable difference to others but, when i look in the mirror, i see the same girl.
Scared & damaged. Afraid to let go of control. Terrified to eat again.
I know i have to, i know i cannot sustain this. Ive been feeling lightheaded today. The other day i thought i was going to pass out so i put a sugar in my coffee. It was scary. The world went a bit black and i felt my muscles relax despite me being standing.
Remember ladies, keep a little candy on you so this doesn’t happen to you! Monitor your blood glucose!!!
I cant wait to be under 200. Maybe then i will feel better?! LOL i doubt it
Starve till i fucking perish