I don't know why I'm writing this but here, misery loves company.
Met up with college bffs yesterday, one of us was clinically diagnosed with anxiety and depression but she said that among us in the group, I am the most unstable (because I relapsed to smoking lol)
They made me realized how stupid I was back in college. I thought my first love had fallen out of love with me but they finally convinced me that it was a third party! hahahahhahah man, it took me 10 fuckin years to believe them!
They also made me aware of how I top being the second place in everything lol. I feel very bad for my younger self
Told them that I kinda want to change my career, gusto ko na din mag Dev QA like them pero sabi ni Ivy, hindi sakin yun bagay kasi I always see the best in everything lol.
I also told them that I've been skipping work for almost the entire month and it alarmed them, big time!
We talked about people from hs to college, but mostly I listened. Told them that early this year, nung last na nagkita kami ni Ivy, narealize ko na hindi nag-expand yung environment ko. I was stuck.
Sobrang alarmed sila na closed yung doors ko when it comes to dating. Told them that I find it lame na makipagkilala ulit. Sabi ko ayoko na ng dagdag sa stress but they pointed out that I need someone who I can share my stress with. I mean, why would I burden somebody else? Nakukuha ko yung point pero dinidismiss ko din lol.
I also told them that I may have already forgotten how to moan, I might bark
They also kinda came up to a conclusion that maybe I don't want to date guys anymore. Ivy reminded me that I talked to her once about my confusion regarding my sexuality hahahhahahaha
Ivy is planning to migrate to Germany with Sasha. Dang and her husband are planning to move to Australia since Jon's family is already in Au. Lai and AJ are also looking to work in Canada since Lai was offered a job there. All these might happen late next year. Si Osyo maghahanap muna daw ng Afam. Me? idk. Prolly stay in Tumblr for the next 10 years.
