High school, present day and everything in between.
I have free week off now. So let me fill my time with writing, have not been doing this for a long time. So this year, I’ll turn to 25. Everyone have been saying that age is just a number, 25 still young, yada yada but here I am feeling kind of left behind in terms of progressing. Most of people around me are married, have kids, pursuing their postgrad studies, have career that are committed to and I’m still in my undergrad studies, studying my ass off to be a doctor (hopefully a good one, inshaallah), faraway from home (10, 000 km). So, excuse me when sometimes I get very lonely and sad.
I’m not the kind of person who dreams big, have long term goals but I do, do my best with the present I have so that I have better future, more choices in the future. Orang cakap result SPM tak penting semua tu, of course if you know what you want to pursue later, the result won’t matter but if you are like me who still haven’t figured out what you want to do in your future when you are 17 years old, then excellent result do matter. Hell, the excellent result don’t even matter if you are so talented and passion in what you’re going to do later be it, menjahit, designing, carpentry maybe or anything that requires skills and creativity then by all means pursue that.
Alhamdulillah for every gifts you send all this time to me ya Allah. I’ve been ungrateful and always ask for more. But sometimes, in my dark days, dark hours I get off the road and loss my will to live. I feel that I’ve experienced everything I need in this life and just can’t be patient to have the Afterlife where everything is beautiful and no pain (hopefully with your rahmat, I’ll get to your Heaven with my families and friends too).
I’m studying with a partial scholarship, I love my family as much as they love me too, I have a steady boyfriend who loves me so much, I think haha (hopefully we get married someday), I have wonderful circle of friends that are more like family to me. I guess that’s all I need (among other material things too hahaha cause you know it’s okay to spend money on yourself as long as it makes you happy & most IMPORTANTLY you have aside your saving portion).
So i guess that’s all what happens with my life now. I’ll check back this post, maybe in 5 years time? Let’s see how far I’ve come.
p/s: ohhh I love my name so much, so thank you whoever give it to me. Tak pernah tanya my mum cause she’s not the storyteller type.
