#doc talking

[dr-galaven]

I really want to draw but I have to finish my assignment and practice my exam 😫

[dr-galaven]

TBH I don't feel ready for Halloween because I have a lot to do and I'm scared that I won't have the time to upgrade my costume.

[dr-galaven]

I kinda feel like drawing mpreg just to joke around and be weird.

[dr-galaven]

I would like to inform you that I will no longer be making more drawings for plaguetober I will stop at the 7th because things have been pretty stressful for me, it is difficult for me to make daily drawings because I have college and other kinds of important jobs to do, however I will make art but I will be slow at it, I had fun joining the first week and hopefully I might join again next year and draw for a whole month, I can't guarantee that though.

[dr-galaven]

//Vent

Something you should know about me

I'm confused about myself

Who am I?

I'm so confused whether I have a disability or not

Back when I was 11 or 12, I had an interview with a diagnostic and I was told that I was diagnosed with mild cognitive disability, but my parents think it's a misdiagnosis because I was very shy and barely spoke, and I was falling behind working. For some reason my parents think that if teachers observed my behavior, they'll immediately assume that I have a disability. The truth is, I used to struggle so much and I still do to this day, and I believe I have various issues too.

Growing up, I always believed that I never had any issues. I always felt like it was my fault for struggling, misunderstanding, falling behind work, and being mentally weak.

When I was 13 or 14, the teachers were planning on transferring me to a new school because of how bad I was struggling. On top of that, I feel like the teachers, students, and my family treated me like an idiot because of my issue.

I was transferred to a new school when I was 14, I was specifically taken to a paced learning program.

The program was for students with mild disorders and disabilities, I never knew why I was taken there.

I told myself it was all my fault for not working hard.

After some time of adjustment, I eventually got used to the program and never questioned why I was there.

I was attending the program for the rest of my school years.

I was doing good in high school and got good grades and moved to a higher level for 1 or 2 subjects, but not the highest level.

I decided to take an upgrade after graduating high school because I wanted extra credits, for some reason I feel like I received these credits for nothing.

While my upgrade year was ending, my teacher talked to me about something and she asked if I remember the interview I had when I was in grade 6, I told her yes, and she said that I if remember I was diagnosed with MCD, despite that it rang the bell, I was left confused because I don't remember anyone telling me about it. I told her about it and she said she's sorry to hear that and told me to talk to my parents about it.

I just know talking to them won't do anything and could potentially make things worse, they have a different mindset and they will never believe me and understand me. They think I am fine, they convince me what I'm feeling is completely fine, they think I didn't try hard enough, apparently I am "too smart" to have a disorder. My parents have said I am smart but lazy, when the truth is I am smart but I struggle.

After all these years of being completely unaware and clueless of having a disorder, I have realized I might have one. I am 21 and I just fucking realize this???

Are my parents hiding something from me or was I actually misdiagnosed and treated differently my entire life? Was the diagnose positive? I am so confused.

Telling them to get a diagnosis is not easy.

What is the easiest way for me to convince them?

How do I get to have them understand?

I am so taunted.

[dr-galaven]

I know we just entered May but I am preparing for art fight

[aces-of-ardor]

Joe posted their art so I thought I'd share some of mine

Predictably, it is a goat

I'm actually very proud of it, I'm not usually the artist type

- Doc (he/him)

[dr-galaven]

I finished him but I can't post it because I haven't thought of a good name and I'm out of phone storage