I wasn’t going to talk about it on here (for whatever reason) but since when did I care about moderating myself lol plus I believe it’s helpful
Anyway so I was diagnosed with narcolepsy in May after more than a decade of really bad sleep, pervasive and excessive daytime sleepiness, and auditory and visual hallucinations that I just kinda got used to! Who knew you weren’t supposed to dream when you’re awake!? (Gonna be sad to say bye bye to The Deer Man and my Spectral Dog lol)
I just started a new med, Xyrem (and really this is the reason why I was hesitant—sodium oxybate is the salt form of GHB, you know, the drug associated with bodybuilding and the club scene, and, oh yeah, date rape [which is a shame because there seem to be several really good proper therapeutic uses!]) but AGAIN I feel it’s helpful to discuss my experiences. I think it helps others get an idea of what may be happening or support for a shitty condition!
Xyrem is the weirdest medication I’ve ever taken and I only just had night three. At low doses it can have stimulant properties??? But at high doses it’s a depressant???? (It is a respiratory depressant and feels a lot like an alcohol buzz but do not fuck around with this stuff). I’m at the lowest dose for another few days, so when I took my first dose last night it didn’t do what I wanted to do which was sleep and the second dose kinda made me groggy but i rolled out of bed at 6 feeling like I drank 10 espressos. I am VIBRATING through the walls!
IT IS SO WEIRD. frankly tho I’ll take physical energy, mental acuity, and motivation I haven’t experienced in years in exchange for some minor clipping issues ;) (I am dreading the nausea that is likely to come with the higher doses but oh well! Another small price of this shit helps me get a normal life back)!