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18: When's your birthday? NEED TO KNOW RN

munday questions. always accepting!

january 13th, 1997 🥰 i'm a capricorn baby!

[apex-royalty]

"i'm eating the apple with the candy slime , it's called balance stef." her smirk says she knows otherwise but she's gonna roll with it anyways.

"Candy slime doesn't sound like any kind of balance. In fact it sounds like a stomach ache. Did you pick that one on purpose or did it just look like an apple on a stick and you just doubled down when you found out it was covered in what I can only assume is more sugar than anyone should ever eat in a day."

Stefan sighed and shook his head with a small chuckle.

"I'm going to start packing you lunches I think. Someone has to take care of you."

[paralyziingfears]

plotted starter with @doesoft. / buffy summers & elena gilbert.

[  ....  ]             the  world  was  different  now.  it  used  to  all  fall  on  buffy's  shoulders;  innocent  lives,  the  fate  of  the  world,  the  burden  of  having  to  endure  violence  every  night.  but,  now,  things  were  ...  different.  better.  she  wasn't  the  only  one  anymore  and  she  had  a  chance  to  mentor  other  girls,  women,  that  now  have  the  same  destiny  she  had  been  carrying  alone  for  so  long.  she  could  guide  them  down  a  path  where  they  could  experience  their  newfound  strength  and  endurance  whilst  having  the  longest  living  slayer  right  by  their  side.  surely  things  will  be  easier  for  them  than  it  was  for  her  ...  right?  that  was  the  only  thing  she  could  truly  hope  for  and  strive  for.  these  girls  meant  everything  to  buffy  summers  and  now  elena  gilbert  was  one  of  them.

after  sunnydale  had  been  blown  up  and  the  first  was  vanquished  (  as  far  as  she  knew  ),  she  had  been  informed  by  giles  that  he  had  caught  word  of  another  potential  in  virginia;  mystic  falls,  to  be  exact.  so,  another  adventure  was  underway  for  buffy.  she  had  packed  her  bags  and  said  her  goodbyes  to  dawn  before  leaving  home  alongside  giles.  they  traveled  together  to  mystic  falls  to  find  elena  gilbert.  it  was  so  much  different  here  than  california.  the  forestry,  the  humidity,  the  rain  ...  all  things  buffy  wasn't  exactly  used  to.  but  one  thing  did  remind  her  of  sunnydale  and  that  was  the  small  town  energy  this  town  had  carried  and  that  brought  buffy  some  comfort.

her  and  her  watcher  had  done  a  scope  around  town  to  gather  more  information.  this  town  definitely  had  vampires  from  the  numerous  reports  of  so-called  'animal  attacks';  not  as  comforting  as  the  quaint  small  town  vibe.  buffy  wondered  if  elena  knew  about  the  vampires  already  or  if  she  was  still  naive  to  what  lurked  in  the  shadows.  they  would  make  a  plan  the  next  day  but,  tonight,  buffy  needed  to  get  to  know  this  town  the  only  way  she  knew  how;  patrolling.

she  strutted  through  the  cemetery  of  mystic  falls,  stake  in  hand  and  senses  on  alert.  it's  nice  to  get  back  to  basics,  buffy  thought  to  herself.  it  wasn't  until  buffy  heard  a  rustling  followed  by  a  scream  not  too  far  ahead  from  her.  she  bolted  in  the  direction  and  flew  over  a  tombstone  to  tackle  down  the  enemy  who  was  attacking  a  girl.  she  straddled  the  vampire  and  jabbed  him  across  the  jaw  on  his  right  then  his  left.  the  vampire  grabs  the  slayer  by  her  shirt  and  throws  her  off  of  him  but  it  didn't  cause  buffy  to  miss  a  beat  in  her  combat.  the  vampire  hovers  over  her  to  grab  once  again  but  buffy  was  quicker,  extending  her  leg  out  and  knocking  him  in  the  teeth  with  her  heel,  causing  the  culprit  to  stumble  back  and  knock  into  a  tree.  she  hops  back  on  her  feet  and  lunges  her  stake  into  his  chest,  directly  in  the  heart,  before  he  could  attack  again  ...  but  he  doesn't  turn  into  dust?  instead,  he  desiccates  right  before  her  eyes;  his  now  grey  body  shriveling  up  and  thumping  onto  the  ground.  a  wave  of  confusion  washes  over  buffy  for  a  moment  but  then  remembers  the  girl  she  just  saved.  she  spins  and  faces   —   elena!!  buffy  clears  her  throat,  ❝  are  you  okay  ?  are  you  hurt  ?  ❞  she  asks  first,  dusting  the  dirt  off  her  clothes.

[survivingpierce]

@doesoft requested a starter around the word(s) fate/sacrifice

          "what reason do you have to be so gloomy and sad all the time? did fate not mean well for you? you should not have survived the sacrifice and yet here you are. even more, you almost had no losses while doing so even though klaus should have killed everyone you hold dear just for the little stunt you and your friends pulled. what more do you want? others don't get as lucky." in katherine's eyes, this almost came off as greedy because precious elena couldn't appreciate what she got. yes, she lost a family member because of the whole sacrifice thing but she got to keep her friends and her lover. well almost, but there's already another one who throws heart eyes after her. katherine, on the other hand, had lost her family, her second chance, her life, and the little security she had. she was forced to go on the run and kill her entire personality just in order to survive. she would have been thankful if she had been given elena's fate. 

[throatsplit]

Who do they love truly, 100% unconditionally (if anyone)? // For Micah

character building questions. always accepting!

Micah rarely, if ever, loves unconditionally. He never had a good model for it, so it's not something that comes naturally. When he does love, it's deep and often profound—and certainly toxic in some way. But never without some kind of conditions. Some ulterior motive. If I had to say someone in his canon without any thread-dependent connections, I'd say his mom is the closest he's ever gotten to both giving and receiving unconditional love. Even then, it wasn't quite that. It was never absolute. She was still an absent parent and although she accepted him more openly than his father did, the love there was steeped in Micah's childlike desire for approval and acceptance for the person he was. It was complex and aching, and still never fully met. Maybe his band manager, Lex—the closest thing he's got to a maternal figure. But even with her, it only extends so far.

Otherwise, I'd say Elena in my private verse with Zepp (@doesoft)! I think it's the closest he's ever gotten and ever will get to experiencing truly unconditional love. They grew up together and she taught him a lot about how love should work. Taught him what selfless love really looks like, what compassion looks like.

Granted, he's a hard guy to change, so his love for her is still messy and possessive and chaotic even after all of it, but he's long since decided that she is his better half and she always will be. She's the only person who could ever get away with hurting him without real consequence (read: serious harm or death) because he would never intentionally hurt her in a way he couldn't fix or comfort away... or in a way she doesn't enjoy. Even if she were to betray him in some way, he'd still love her, and it would protect her in a way that he would never allow anyone else. Where he'd otherwise snap and slip back into the violence that comes easier than breathing to him, he might stop and think first—because it's her. He won't ever change who he is, but he always wants to be better for her.

His love for her is literally all-consuming, but he wouldn't have it any other way. It's primal and fierce and bone-deep, and he would go to the ends of the earth for her. She's the one constant in his life, even when they weren't together—the one thing in his life that he's never questioned. The one person in his life he thinks is meant for him. Made for him. He'd go out of his way to make sure she's happy, and he doesn't do that for anyone. He just doesn't care enough, but for Elena? He'd try to give her the fucking world if that's what it took, and that's a big thing for him—to want to do these things. To want what's good for her—like being able to do her college courses when she's on the tour bus with him, fucking around across the world. It's a big thing for someone to matter enough that he doesn't just do whatever the fuck he wants and say fuck everything else. He thinks about her now, too, and when it comes to Micah, that speaks volumes on its own.

If she tried to leave him again, he'd still react badly. His love for her and whatever softness it brings out of him doesn't make his need to possess her any less, and the one time without her was more than enough for him (even though he kept tabs like the stalkerish fuck he is). He let her go back then because he knew it was what she needed, even though it tore him apart. Some part of him recognized that she was doing it more for herself, and if he had forced her to stay, she would've ended up hating him. But now? He wouldn't let go so easily. He wouldn't be outright violent, at least not in a way that could bring her genuine harm, but he'd still be dangerous. He'd go about it in all the wrong ways. Soft, pleading touches mixed with possessive fists in her hair or grips just a little too tight. He'd easily chase her down to find her and do whatever he could to force her to stay, but in the end, I think if it's what she really wanted? He'd let her go. It wouldn't be gentle or easy, and it wouldn't be in any real capacity—at least for him, because he'd probably stalk the fuck out of her and beat up (or kill) anyone who came too close. But he'd accept it, again, because it's her. And he'd still love her through it all.

It's as unconditional as he's ever gonna get.

[paralyziingfears]

continued from here with @doesoft. / stefan salvatore & elena gilbert.

[  ....  ]                everything  that  embodied  elena  gilbert  was  what  stefan  only  felt  he  could  dream  to  be.  she  was  genuine,  authentic,  and  selfless.  even  when  all  odds  were  stacked  against  her,  she  continued  to  sacrifice  herself  for  the  greater  good  and  for  the  lives  of  all  those  that  she  loved  and  innocents  she  didn't  even  know.  what  had  he  done  to  deserve  such  a  real  love  that  came  from  such  a  compassionate  person?  he  felt  he  didn't  deserve  her  but  he  still  counted  his  lucky  stars  every  night  that  she  decided  to  give  him  a  chance  despite  the  monster  that  lingered  beneath  the  surface.  his  ripper  side  ...  the  side  of  him  that  craved  every  ounce  of  blood  that  ran  through  her  veins  was  something  he  was  constantly  terrified  of.  what  if  one  day  he  wouldn't  be  able  to  hold  his  shadow-self  back?  he  wouldn't  be  able  to  live  with  himself  if  he  were  the  reason  that  elena  would  get  hurt  ...  or  something  even  worse.  he  couldn't  bear  even  the  thought  of  it.

and  maybe  that's  why  he  felt  so  down  on  himself  lately.  with  katherine  in  town,  reminding  him  of  what  he  used  to  be,  it  was  plaguing  his  thoughts  with  a  dark  force  he  felt  he  couldn't  push  down.  but  here  elena  was,  doing  the  thing  she  effortlessly  always  did;  tether  him  back  down  to  reality  with  her  kindness  and  unwavering  ability  to  see  the  good  in  people   —   even  when  they  didn't  deserve  it.  her  gentle  touch  was  enough  to  ground  him  and  he  takes  his  time  gazing  into  her  eyes  lovingly  as  she  speaks  to  him  through  her  angelic  voice,  one  he'd  never  get  tired  of  hearing.  her  words  cause  a  soft  smile  to  grace  his  lips,  softening  his  features  which  in  hand  caused  him  to  soften  on  himself.  that's  the  kind  of  effect  elena  gilbert  had  on  stefan  salvatore.  ❝  how  do  you  do  that  ?  ❞  he  asked  through  an  exasperated  breath,  a  soft  chuckle  following.  he  takes  her  hands  in  his  and  squeezes  gently,  never  breaking  eye  contact  with  her.  ❝  it's  one  of  the  many  things  i  admire  about  you,  elena.  if  i'm  any  of  those  things,  it's  because  of  you.  ❞

[paralyziingfears]

[  ....  ]                  the  worst  thing  that  could've  happened  to  stefan  and  his  attempt  at  a  fresh  start  in  mystic  falls  was  katherine  pierce.  he  didn't  think  he'd  ever  see  her  again  but  she  had  found  a  way  to  worm  her  devil-self  right  back  into  his  life,  messing  with  him  and  his  brother  alike.  he  had  confidence  in  his  and  elena's  relationship  but  he  still  understood  that  their  relationship  was  new,  potentially  fragile,  and  he  didn't  want  anything  to  shatter  the  rose-colored  glass  that  surrounded  them.  he  was  in  love  with  @doesoft  and  he  was  unwilling  to  let  katherine  get  in  between  them,  no  matter  how  hard  she  tried.

he  couldn't  stop  staring  into  elena's  eyes;  even  with  all  the  worry  and  paranoia  that  swirled  within  them.  he  understood  her  concerns,  even  shared  some,  but  what  was  the  point  of  fighting?  especially  about  katherine?  this  is  what  she  wanted  and  it  was  working.  he  sighed  deeply,  his  arm  still  slung  across  her  shoulders  as  they  laid  together  in  her  bed.  ❝  katherine  means  nothing  to  me,  elena.  i  don't  know  why  she's  back  or  what  she  wants  but  i'm  not  going  to  let  her  get  in  the  way  of  us  ❞  he  stated  firmly,  his  tone  serious  and  promising.  a  beat  of  silence  passes  between  them.

❛  i  don't  even  remember  why  we  started  fighting.  ❜

a  soft  laugh  spills  from  the  vampire's  lips,  shaking  his  head  a  bit  and  instinctively  pulling  her  in  closer  to  his  side  so  he  could  embrace  her  tighter.  he  presses  a  kiss  atop  her  head,  ❝  then,  let's  not.  i  know  it's  easier  said  than  done  but  the  best  thing  way  you  can  fight  against  katherine  is  to  ignore  her.  she  wants  us  fighting,  elena.  let's  not  give  her  that  satisfaction.  ❞

[malka-lisitsa]

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