#dog died

[sylvamummy]

My dog just died. I don’t know how to deal with it.

[vyrerus]

The sun to my moon is gone now. She died in my arms while we tried to resuscitate her. I felt her heart stop beating, and her neck went limp and sagged to the side. We’ll bury her when the sun rises so we can see to dig a proper grave, next to her brother’s. I’ll miss you forever, Little Miss Brandy. 

It hurts so much more with both of them gone, Rudy and Brandy. It hurt worse this time, watching her die, unable to do anything about it. We tried an emergency clinic earlier in the evening, and they actually just wound up making things worse, since they gave her an opiate to calm her for X-rays and then told us it’d cost $1800 for overnight oxygen on top of the already $325 that we paid for the visit and X-ray of her chest cavity. After diagnosing congestive heart failure, they didn’t even give her anything to offset the opiate so that we could give her the meds that she needed, though they did get her a diuretic via IV( more $$$ there too). But those were the options. $1800 oxygen in addition to all the other stuff, or take her home with the meds and hope she pulled through. We chose what we could afford, and so she died.

And it just fucking stings me so bad, cause there were so many points yesterday where I could have gotten her in earlier and possibly saved her life and had her live another year or two, but her symptoms didn’t show themselves till a little after dinner :(. And then I’m even angrier at the fact that I didn’t put my foot down about taking her with us to the Eclipse. Not just because the heat exacerbated her heart condition(Mum was also adamant about not letting her stay inside), but because she missed out on getting to spend 14 hours of the last 48 hours of her life with us, due to hellish traffic. She spent those hours overheating, mostly blind and unable to find the two water dishes I set out for her(she was too used to being in doors at this point). I’m a fucking mess of rage and sorrow. 

Couldn’t even catch a break in XIV, after it was all said and done. I missed raid, and things that I needed dropped. My friends were sympathetic to my troubles at least, but ugh, when it fucking rains, it pours. I need a stiff drink, cause this mountain dew whiteout ain’t cutting it.

[cowboystokes]

god u fall in the shower, smash ur head so hard you split under your eyebrow open, make it incredibly painful to smile for 2 months, make it so you spend christmas with a raging black eye ONCEEEE and now you can’t drop a bottle of shampoo without people yellin to make sure you didn’t just eat shit again

my face still hurts sometimes if i touch by my eye

[soulllest-main]

i have cried more in the last 6 days than i had 8 month straight on record

[rainyydoves]

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[gunmetal-ring]

God I can't wait until 2024 is over

[plant-piss]

Our fridge decided to give up and leak everywhere and now we have no flooring in our kitchen lolll the nightmare of August might just be a rest of the year kinda thing

[fathermulcahyofficial]

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