i feel like drinking hot lava whenever there's like this weird off-putting second male lead syndrome on Secretive Plotter like nooo...
and he's meant to be this gentleman who was his shit together (*loud incorrect buzzer*) and dotes on Kim Dokja, and is often times contrasted by loud, aggressive, cold, detached alpha male (*loud incorrect buzzer*) Yoo Joonghyuk...
People want "Why is it you not me?" line to be solely about Dokja so bad it's really fucking odd. Because, sure that monologue about not being good enough for his sole reader was about Kim Dokja no doubt. This line is about the whole Kim Com. All of them got to live, no companion died, Yoo Mia is alive, they'll proceed to the next scenario BECAUSE SP did it first, it's because of his continuous failure. He is absolutely upset and he makes it known. He wasn't even allowed to pass the final wall, ofcourse he has bitter feelings.
kkoma [999] literally lays it all out in that wolf story, how do you still not get it?
I feel like I've said it so many times today, but, DokPlot/Plotja are more likely to be hate-fucking (preferably with kim dokja on top :P) than actually be normal about it. Yoo Joonghyuk comparatively has his shit more together than the two of them combined (somehow it's worse when you put them together).
Ofc this doesn't mean he completely hates Kim Dokja, even though KDJ thinks so, in the extras there is actually this moment:
Here, I'm inclined to believe this is about KDJ and not OD because 1) "line of text left behind him", atleast to me, doesn't make much sense if OD is with them (which he is) and 2) OD was ~15 when they adopted him, so it wouldn't make sense for this to be his since he wouldn't be too far into the novel either. Also, this isn't too far into taking care of Dokja since a few lines later he is described as a boy who appeared to be a middle schooler.
He doesn't even care to answer WHY he has that 💀
He does mention OD later, in manner that made me laugh, he said he doesn't care about the solar calendar because his sponsor isn't the sun (in regards to his birthdate/day)
This, in my opinion, feels less ambigious than the previous scene.
(Or maybe I'm reading it wrong or the translation is wonky but until I stand corrected I will be taking it as that)
Anyways, the point is SP and KDJ have a very #itscomplicated relationship. SP doesn't exactly hate KDJ with the fire of a thousand suns but it's not like he's going to fully be in love with him either, it's that he has very bitter feelings.