Apr 21
"there is still time," i say, desperately clutching at jax's shoulders. "one episode left. ONE!!!! you will figure yourself out before the show ends. THERE IS STILL TIME!"
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"there is still time," i say, desperately clutching at jax's shoulders. "one episode left. ONE!!!! you will figure yourself out before the show ends. THERE IS STILL TIME!"
God I'm too tired to say anything smart or coherent but I just really think Jax is trans and it's just so wonderful. Everything about it is wonderful. She's so wonderful. I want to see her get worse and then better again. I want her to slowly learn vulnerability. I want her to tumble and crash along a long journey of self-discovery and ultimately find herself.
Honestly just posting this bc I'm craving the chance to talk about her with others aaaugh
Anyway I'm going to spoil the fic concept im working on since I'm taking way too long to finish it.
Basically: the irl version of Jax who put on the headset, got brain scanned, and kept on living life went on to undergo some character development and accept herself & transition. She later ends up back in the same building where she puts on the headset again, mostly for shits and giggles since it "didn't do anything" the first time. Accordingly, this version of Jax spawns into the Circus in the immediate aftermath of episode 8, and she has already accepted herself, become a bit more open, and transitioned. She & the Jax who has been there for years pick up that they are the same person way before anyone else does but Jax isn't exactly thrilled about this because ... denial and stuff. The rest will come when I post the fic.
rereading wha and I love when Qifrey somehow says a little heart. I want to throw him off a cliff
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i don't know how to explain this but i feel like i'm specifically in the transfem jax fandom rather than the jax fandom or the tadc fandom and it's been this way since june 2025
There's something about episode 4 and jax. Like everyone talks about the name tag but the way we get a shot of the license plate on the car with jax's name on it, then a shot of jax's expression (which is .. frustrated? worn? something like that), before we finlly get a shot of jax getting into the care. That is a very intentional usage of shots
Like she avoided her name at work by not writing it on her name tag yet here at the end of the shift it greets her. it feels almost like an insult.
Ooh this is a good point!! Honestly, that entire episode felt like a huge representation of how Jax cannot handle being faced with reality. Her name is, of course, both deeply connected to her transness and her identity as a human, and acknowledging one means acknowledging the other in some way, even if subconsciously. She can't be only one or the other, and avoiding both only compounds, and in this episode, she is forced to confront it.
So I agree that it's a bitter ending to what was probably already a really challenging day for her. She was forced to act as the human she's been desperately pretending she isn't, and in the process, she is forced to be uncomfortably herself, so she'll take what she can get by writing "I don't care" on the name tag. But of course, the adventure doesn't care how Jax feels, so she gets her name plastered right on the front of her car in the end to remind her who she is. (I think this would hurt at first like you mentioned, since it feels like a big slap in the face, and then after that she might use it as a springboard from which to put herself back in the mindset of her archetypal role as "Jax")
So basically: resigned, worn out, and still returning to the car, aka her role as "Jax," to play-act something she isn't because as unpleasant as it is, she is even more afraid of facing reality.
Nice observation!
I habitually watch YouTube videos analyzing and theorizing about tadc and aside from the vast majority of them misunderstanding or missing key details, it always strikes me that a lot of their explanations for Jax's actions are so much more contrived than simply saying Jax is a trans woman, which is a super clear conclusion to draw at this point. I've hardly seen anyone even consider it a possibility. ?? Nearly everyone I've explained this theory to has ended up believing it wholeheartedly, so i guess the YouTube theorists just don't consider it in the first place