There are so many things I want to tell you two, and I honestly do not know how to start this one. Should I start with how sad I am today because I miss seeing you twogether and of the issues about you two not being an LT anymore? Or should I begin with explanations on how you two can make me legit giggle and smile from being sad in less than a second just by binge watching fan made videos about you? Or maybe I should start with how did all these love I have for you begin? Yes, great!
It was one fine afternoon of November 2018. I was scrolling through my facebook feed and there, I saw your viral video during your ggv guesting. Well, I've been loving you, my dear Kisses since your PBB days. You are like a baby to me. I love you, so much that when I'd see you cry, I'd also cry and just wanna go inside screens so I could give you a very tight hug. You are too precious to me that I wished I could protect you from this cruel world. And man, you my baby Donny, you caught my attention since the day I saw a clip from myx entitled "Siblings Challenge". There, you and your sister, Hannah, were both asked who's most likely to flirt. Hannah wrote her name; and jeez, you are too cute when you asked Hannah, "You could flirt?", confused and astonished. Being someone who's been longing for a Kuya love, I stan a protective kuya.
He was your escort during your debut but I didn't see a spark yet as the 19 year old me believed that Donny was just forced to be your escort because he doesn't look happy that time, not knowing that he was just too nervous because yes, I did not know him that much yet.
And from that viral video I have watched, there, I saw a connection between you two; I saw a spark - a spark in Donny's eyes and a spark in Kisses's smiles. I do not know but I really saw something in that video that I was so drawn to it, so drawn that I opened my youtube app and started watching donkiss fmvs, lots of it; and I could still remember how I spent literally my one whole day way back then on instagram, just lurking and lurking and lurking about you up until my head had ached. Then, I made my donkiss twitter account to keep updated about you. And, the rest is history.
You see, not a single time did I regret spending those days lurking and lurking about you two. Those days made me get to know you more, almost everything about you - your personalities, values, attitudes, principles; you name it. It is not just a fan thing anymore, it is way deeper than that already; so deep that most of whom i'd try to talk about with cannot dive into. It's like you two and my DonKiss fam occupied a special place in my heart; although I am still a closet fan so yes, I still haven't made friends with them but like they're somehow a family to me already because only they can understand the depth of love I have for you. Only we can understand that your partnership is more than just being actors, more than just ratings, views, magazine covers, projects, and more than just kilig. Only we know that you guys are so much more. And, only you two have this effect on me; only you.
You had have been a home to me, really. I remember when you still work together for PlayHouse, there are times that I'd go home, so tired, but it would not bother me at all knowing that when I'd arrive at home, I'd be scrolling through my twitter feed to read updates about your taping days and that already heals me, no matter how tired I am.
And today, and these past days, my loves, I am kind of sad. It has been a month since PlayHouse has ended. It has been a month since you two saw each other. I am not sad because of that, though, because if there is one out of million things you two taught me, it is to wait for the Right time. What I am sad about is of the issues of you being no longer an LT. It's saddening me, really. I am sad because I will be missing seeing you two together, so much. I am sad because of how the show business and its management work; you two do not deserve this damn cruel world. I am sad because I am afraid all my eyes have seen and my heart have felt are just merely delusions. I am sad because I badly want you to end up together, so bad. People might not understand fully when I say that you two are perfect for each other; yet these words are still understatement. I am sad because I am sad. I remember telling myself that I would be totally fine with not having my own love story until the time I get married at the age of 25 as seeing you two together are so much enough; but now, that's gone.
But again, you two taught me to have faith in fate. I may be sad right now - because it's okay not to be okay sometimes, right?, but I am still optimistic about you being the endgame of each other real soon. I don't know but I just really have this feeling that you two are fated to be together. And when that Time would come, I swear I will go back to this blog; I will go back to all those disbelievers who doubted the sincerity of your words and the genuineness of your actions. For now, all I can do is to keep on believing on the genuine friendship behind all those cameras and spotlights you two have built. I will keep holding on to that Hope.