everytime i think of m/charlie i feel so.. idk i feel like there was a lot i havve to say, not only apologize to him but i cannot move on some days. its such a haunting feeling i have of my past and maybe i should just leave it in my past but i really did love him but i was such an emotional mess in high school?? first of all i wasnt ready to come to terms with anything about myself so i tried masking all of it!! i’ve changed a lot as a person and im so ready to experience emotions as they come because i know i can handle them!! but i also dont want to appear weak still !! je ne sais pas.. i’ll live! maybe one day ill reach out to him for closure on my part but i also feel like he’s major pissed at me and wants to never hear from me again . umst. dot dot dot
